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<p>10:49pm<p> Ekhon bose bose chinta kortesi kal bashay jabo kina. Decision neya tough hoye jacche. Vaiyar flight porsu. Aj jaoar kotha cjilo. Gelam na. Kalam k cha r cigarette ante pathaisi. Kalam, chele ta onek valo. Honest, hard working. Buddhiman o bote, kintu sharp na brain. Sukkho sukkho kisu bepar o dhorte pare kina janina. Dekhi ektu FB te jai.





Facebook jinista akhon boring lage. Akhon Fb page open hotei dekhi congratulate korlo. I won something. weird. Net a onek kisu jitechi. Lucky person ami. Macbook jitlam now. LOL. Funny stuff. Bogus. Ekbar mobile a sms pelam, 5000 dollar jitsi. Call back korte hobe oi number a. Foreign number. Ekbar dekhalo oi number er tittle hishabe Bangladesh bank short form a uthlo. BgldshBnk erokom kisu uthsilo. Shohel er mobile theke amr ekta pic niye Fb te upload disilam. Now profile pic hishabe use kortesi. Saraf r zisa comment o korse dekhi. Valo. Proshongsha shunte kar na valo lage.




Ma phone dilo, kotha bollam. Kal dhaka jaor kotha confirm bole dilam. Upae nai.Jete hobe 2 din er beshi thakteo parbo na. Problem. College niye tension a thakbo. Dhaka city ta ekhon r amr valo lage na. Age mone kortam dhaka chara onno kothao thakle hole dom bondho hoye mara jabo. R akhon dhakae dom bondho hoye morar upokrom. Ek din a ekta beshi kaj kolpona kora jae na. R gorom er kotha naiba bollam.




Ami ekta jinis kheyal kore dekhlam, amr FMC choto vai der cheye local choto vai ra amr proty beshi careful. Phone kore khobor nicche, and rat a amr sathe karo thakte hobe kina, insecure feel korchi kina. Valo ora. Jodio amader so called society te tara kharap, bokhate, bokhe jaoa chelepele. But i think they are far more better than anyone of this campus. 1st year a ami karo sathe temon mistam na. Karon amr mentality r other FMCians der mentality milto na. FMCians ra beshi self orientated. Onnoder niye vabar shomoy tader nei.




Fmc te eshe ekta jinish lokkho korlam, Meye r cheler moddhe j dhoroner shomporkoi thakuk seta ek shomoy love a turn nibei. Sister bole daka shuru GF bole sesh. Oneke mohe pore affair kore. Beshi din tikey o na. Odvut life akahne. Oneke mone kore shudhu fmc te emon. Asole sob jaegae e same. Hostel life erokom.