Kolpona

11:51pm

Ekta gan k crop kore ringtone banalam. Ekhon koyekdin aita rintone hishebe use korbo. Ganta holo Krishno kolir. Valoi ganta tittle maybe bondhu amar. Ami ubuntu os use kori. Crop er application nai. tai rds er pc theke crop kore anlam.

Bondhu amr mon valo nei, tmr mon ki valo?
Bondhu esho shopno aki charta deyal jure, bondhu esho akash dekhi purota cokh khule, bondhu esho jole vashi buk vashanor shukhe. Bondhu tmr bondhu ami, bondhu mora kojon, tobuo bondhu vashi na ko, aki nako shopon.

Gantar lyrics ta valo laglo.

12:22am.

Aj valo lagche na. Tai akhon shuye porsi. Balish er pashe, 2 ta cigarette er packet. Ekta khali, r ekta te 2 ta cigarette ache, ekta matchbox, bottle a kore cha, move, r mobile. R kichu ai shomoy proyojon hoyna. R agulo protidin e thake. Khater pashe ek bottle pani. Table fan r ekta ash tray. Jodio ota use kora hobe na. Cigarette er khali packet ta ash tray hishebe use hobe. Table a r ekta packet ache. Ota te mone hoy 5 ta cigarette ache.

Mathae khub tikkhno ekta betha onuvob korlam. Ekta wave er moto. Akhon nai. Mp3 te gan cholche. Shunchi r cupid er kotha mone korchi. Amk dekhle naki onekei shanti pae, but ami to kaoke dekhle shanti pai na. Jakey dekhle ektu pai, takey dekhina. Accha ami canteen a boshe thaki, er jonno ki junior meyera ki mone kore ami tanki mari? Vabte pare. Chelera nishchoi vabbe na. Ora amk chine valo korei. Ekta cigarette dhorai. Wait.
Cigarette dhorate giye dekhlam ekta chocolate o ache. Besh. Cha thanda hoye geche. Thanda cha e khelam. Cupid k niye r kichu likhbo na. Okey niye kichu likhle beshi mone porbe. Chinta hobe, r kosto pabo. Ki dorkar nijer upor ottachar korar. Blogger ba wordpress er cheye live journal a likhe moja. Vabnar rajpothe sobuz signal jele shongket dicche cupid k niye vabar. Accha o ki bujhe amr kosto? Ki kore bujhbe, o ki jane? Hoyto jane, jana uchit. Campus er r keu ki jane or kotha? Ami jader khub beshi believe kori tara jane, bakira hoyto guess kore. Andaje dhil marleo majhe majhe lege jae. Ami addae gele chupchap thaki dekhe sobai mone kore amr onk kosto, but keu janena kosto kisher. Janar chesta korse onekei, but bertho hoye hal chere dise. Oneker life a neshr jogot tai anondonogor. Ati kalponik ekta state. Jekhane jekono kichu niye govir vabe chinta kora jae. Shukkho nibir chinta. Garo ekta onuvuti. Ai anondonogor to khonosthayi. Nesha kete gelei abar sei ager pain. Tobe ekta shuvidha holo ager dine feel kora pain r mone thake na. Life theke ekta din missing hoye jae. Evabe onkgulo din e missing hoye jae. Tai koshter onuvuti gulo sritir pata theke muche jae.

Life ta k ogochalo vabe nosto kore dilam nijer hat a. Sob kichu ki abar guchiye ana jae na? Possible but difficult. Ager sei ami r ekhon kar ami r moddhe hazar gun difference. Rollback kora onk tough hobe. Onek tough.

Somen phone diyechilo matro. Room er light off dekhe mone korse ami hoyto baire. Tai phone dilo. Ask korlo, amr ki hoise, mon kharap naki, lonely thaki keno, oder k kisu share korina keno? Ato kichur kono jobab nai amr kase vai. Answer korar khomota o nai. Ai pain emon e ekta pain j share kora jabe na. O cupid k jane. But tobuo okey ami bolte parbo na j ami cupid k khub beshi miss kortesi. Ami ai type na sobai seta dharona kore. Valobasha amk kokhono durbol korte pareni. Sobai tai e vabe. Baire theke ami nijeke khub sokto ekta manush hishebe show kori. Kintu amr vetor ta j jole pure char khar hoye jacche kibave bujhabo koake, ki va bolbo? Ami ekta voboghure jhor hoye gechi. Free man. Kono pichutan nai.

Valobasha jinista amr kache totota soccho na, kichuta osposto. Tobuo kivbe ai valobashai amk makorshar jaler moto akkre dhoreche bujhtei parini. Amr cupid onk friend der sathe hashahashi kore jokhon kotha bole, ami opolok or dikey takiye roi. Tokhon amio onk manusher sathe thaki, tobuo eka hoye jai khub tokhon. Amr friend ra o onk golpo kore hashahashi kore. Kintu amr dristy, monojog sob ek jaegae sthobir hoye jae. Ami majhe majhe kolpona kori, ami ghumiye achi, ramr cupid amk amr room a dakte asche. Ghum hotat venge jae abong ekta dirghoshas ber hoye jae. Kosto hoy khub. Majhe majhe kolpona kori ami ghumiye achi r cupid amr mathe hat buliye dicche r ghum theke dakche. Abar majhe majhe kolpona kori ami r cupid bowl dance korchi. Emon o kolpona kori majhe majhe j amr cupid amr kole matha rekhe shuye ache r ami or chul niye khela korchi. Kolpona jokhon kete jae tokhon sara jibon er jonno kolponar jogotei thakte icche kore. Isshor amk sei khomota dae ni.
Warfaze er obak valobasha ganer ekta line a bolse, sob bedona muche jak sthirotae, hridoy vore jak ostitter anonde.
Kono ostitto e to nai amr. Ami kivabe, kiser shantonae bedona gulo vulbo? She took my heart i think she took may soul. Soul, atta, ostitto.
Buker vitor ekta chapa kosto onuvuto hocche. Mone hoy senseless hoye jabo. R ekta cigarette jalai.

Aj 20th batch er ekta meye canteen a amon vabe amr dikey takalo j ami lojjae onnk dikey takiyechi. Or takanota orthoboho. Ki hote pare seta?
1. Ami canteen a asha takey lucchami mone korse. Jodi ata mone kore, seta hobe chorom vul.
2. Ai sei shipon vai. Hmm, ata vabte pare. 20th batch amr name shunse bivinnovabe. Tachara FB te fake id gula amk totha amr chattro league k niye ja shuru korse, tatey erokom vaba oshavabik na.
3. Ai sei shipon vai. In negative sense. Fake id gular kotha biswas korle.
Othoba, 4. Ai vaia ta emon keno? Different. Atao vabte pare.
Asole amr tokhon canteen a jao ta thik hoyni. Kintu situation ta jeno kemon hoye gelo. Bablur dokan er shamne theke cigarette neyer shomoy vitore oder k dekhsi. Ora hoyto vabte pare, oder dekhe ami canteen a gesi. But asole to ami canteen a mosharrof er jonno wait korar jonno gesi. Shuvo dadar okhane jete cheyechilam. Tobe eshob bepar amr kemon jeno lage. Keu negatively nicche kina chinta hoy majhe majhe. Meyeder piche ami ghuri na eta sobai jane. 20th batch notun, tobuo kichuta holeo to jane. Jai hok. Ja vabar vabuk. Amr kichu jae ashe na. Ektu ghumanor chesta kori ekhon. Bye. Good night cupid. I love you.