Night at home.

10:01pm

Bashar kisu kisu jinish amr khub e birokto lage. Mone hoy amra sobai pagol. Er moddhe onnotomo holo, akhon kono kisu keu korte bolle seta tokhon e korte hobe jodio totota important na. Jai hok, bashay aschi, valo lagtese. Ashar shomoy baje ekta journeyr oviggota holo. Agei bolsi, ai route er journey baje. Tar upor abar namar kotha ek jaegae, vule onno bus a uthe namsi r ek jaegae. Babu bazar a. Tobe ekta lav o hoise ete. Amr school er shamne diye aschi. Sei victoria park. Luxmi bazar. Ahmed burger shop. New KFC o hoise ekhon. Oporichito mone hocchilo. Dafrin muslim hostel. Amader school er hostel. Onek srity joriye ache oi rastae. Shejutyr sathe tanki mara shuru hoy okhan theke. Or sathe or ma thakto. Or mayer cokh faki diye amra prem kortam. Lol. Tobe shejuty r sathe kokhon dating hoyni. Ghurteo jaini kokhono. Sudhu matro koyekbar or bashay gesi. Or ma chilo na. Ami, shejuty, or vai alvi. Shejuty k kokhono touch o korinai. Ekbar or birthday te okey ring kine diyechilam. Seta nije okey poriye diyechilam. O ki engagement ring mone kore porsilo naki??? Lol. O khub shundori chilo. But amr moner moto na. Akhon kar chelepele to shundor er piche chote. Shejuty shundor, smart ekta meye. Tobuo ki jeno or chilo na. Tai hoyto ami okey kokhon gf hishebe nei nai. Actually, choto belae ami o r or vai, sathe aro oneke eksathe kheltam. Choto belar khela, borof pani. Hasi pacche esob mone kore. Issh, okey ami j mair gula ditam choto belae. Chul tantam. Boro hoye jokhon prem kori o bolto, tmr mair deyar kotha ami jiboneo vulbo na. Bibroto bodh kortam. Sathe sathe boltam tmi o to kom maroni amk, ata bole hastam. O bolto ami pithe ekhono tmr mair er dag ase hoyto. Or sathe faizlami korar doshe ek chele k ekbar amrs diye voy dekhlam. Ami nije na, lokjon pathasilam. Arif name chilo. Sejuty ekbar phone kore onk kannakati korsilo. Asole sotti kotha bolte, ami different hoisi o ekta meyer jonno. Gadha type chilam maybe. Tar name shimu. Shimu chilo amr 1st attraction. Ongkurei sesh. Hawa pao name hawae uriye dilam type. True love ektai korsi and kivabe hoise bujhtei parinai. Tokhon bujhlam eta true love from either side. Okey niye kichu likhbo na. Kosto lage. Mone korte chaina or srity. Shimu shomporke pore jesob khobor jansi shune mone mone bolsi Shimu you are nothing but a whore now. Shimu r ami ek school a portam. School er last din amk ekta card dilo or friend ra soho sobai mile, o amk dilo alada kore r ekta. Lekha chilo 'Remember me'. Class 4 a pori. Bujhi nai kisue. Just valo friend chilam. Valo na best friend. Hand shake korar shomoy hat betha ditam or. Ekdin o amk bole, betha paina r, obvosto hoye gechi. School chere onno school a vorti holam. Ek eid a shimu amader bashay hazir. Ami to obak. Ora naki ekdin amk follow kore amr basha chinse. Or boro bon soho. Sob or boro bon er buddhi, apu tokhon ten a porto maybe. Tar porer din oder bashay amk invite korlo, gelam, sara din chilam. Golpo, khela r o kotokisu. Okey o marsi khelar chole. Oder bashay ekta kukur chilo. Jeta amr shotru chilo. Shimu tokhon 6/7 a pore. Amio. Onk din por class ten a ami abar jogajog kori or sathe, amr friend er jonno actually. Amr friend or ek friend k like kore. Avabe abar shimu'r sathe jogajog. Adda, golpo. Ek shomoy shuni or BF ase. Amr ek friend k bolsilo, and atao bolsilo, j shipon k ami khub like kortam choto belae. Kintu hotat o hariye gelo, r jogajog korlo na. Er moddhe r ek jon er sathe porichoy holo, pore affair. Porichoy ta hoisilo naki bangla film er moto kore. Kichu chele okey tease korto, r oi cheleta hero hoye eshe seta bondho korse. Maramari o korse maybe. Tokhon mathae chinta elo, jah baba, mastan chele meyeder pochondo naki? Amio mastan hobo, godfather. But kono meyeke allow korbo na life a. Tarpor shuru holo amr biddhongshi life. Dhupkhola mather atongko type holam. Just amr porichoy diyei maramari. Oi amre chinos? Ami shipon vai er choto vai. Lol. Sejutyr sathe jogajog chilo tokhono. Approach o korse 1st. Faizlami korto. Ami vablam, mondo ki ektu tanki mari. Ata j ek shomoy love hoye jabe or jonno bujhi nai. But amr kisue korar chilo na. H.S.C exam er age khelam ek bishal dhakka. Tarpor shuru korlam pora. Jar fole ami aj FMC te. Amr friend ra amk khub valobashe. Ek shomoy kisu kisu friend shudhu matro amr power er jonno friend chilo. Ora hariye geche srityr patae. Akhon olpo kisu friend er sathe jogajog ase. Amr circle ta ato boro j bangladesher sob jaegae e amr friend ase. Just khuje ber korte hobe. Ekhon jony e amr ek matro friend. R ek jony ase, mig33 theke amr friend. O amk bole, tui to amr kolijar tukra. Ha ha ha. Supportive. Galaxy bar a adda martam ami r o. Sathe aro kisu mig friend. Sobcheye moja kori eid a. 1 case beer. R ekta bottle. Jekono hote pare, tobe obosshoi bideshi. Eid er 2 din dhore saradin drinks kora chole. FB te kisu pix o ase. Ami kisudin alcoholic hoye giyechilam. Chronic. Hostel a ek bottle kintam, protidin 6/7 peg kore khetam. Akhon chere disi. Now bye. Pore valo lagbe abar kisu likhbo. Amr jiboni. Lolzzz

Journey.

5:14pm

Now i'm on my way to home. This is kind of different route. Maowa hoye. Adike diye gesi koyekbar. But 1st faridpur ashchilam ai route hoye. 250 bed a thamsilam first. Tobe ai dik diye gele amr subidha holeo journey ta baje hoye jae. Bus gulo valona. Local. Aj e to last seat a blshe ashte holo. Sani to dariyei thaklo vanga porjonto. Bechara. Jak akhon ekta valo bus uthsi bole blogging korte partesi. Weather ta chorom. Amr moto sadhu der jonno aro chorom. Now besh thanda lagtese. Janala khola bus er. Thanda batash direct amr mathar right lateral side potese. Gari theme gele batash o theme jae. Oi bus a jokhon chilam tokhon onek kisu chinta kortesilam chokh bondho kore. Sani mone korse ami ghumaisi. Headphone a gan shuntesi. Tokhon obossho gangulo analysis korchilam. Ki mean kore gan gulo. Shironamhin er Onek asha niye ganta shundor. Ai gantar theme holo, ekjon cheka khawa premik er golpo. Ekta line, jodi ghum sob ghum vange jae ami onek asha niye jege thaki. Ata diye bujhiyeche, jodi tar premika abar fire eshe dorja kora nare tahole tar ghum vangbe. Ete jodi deri hoy, tai se tar premikar protikkhae jege thake. Jotil meaning. Kolpona korle music video vashe cokhe. Mane kolponae ekta music video dairye jae. hahaha. Music videor director hole kharap kortam na. Almost here ganta, Brian McFadden r Delta Goodrem er. Ata hocche, valobashae pagol 2 chagol ek jon arek jon k kolpona kore. Illusion. Tobe Rob thomas er now comes the night gan ta asolei jotil. Bura manusher valobasha. Wife er proty husband er. Jar wife young age a mara gese. Bura boyoshe amio piano bajate bajate ganta korbo. Lol. Mon chuye jae gangulo. Bashay jaoar shomoy bus sobshomoy ekta gan shuni ami, shanjib dar bari fera ganta. Ebar shuninai. Akhon play korlam. Gantar moddhe momottobodh, uccholota ase. Ai side er rasta ta khub dangerous. Accident so common. R accident hole to direct hell. O valo kotha, tahole to acdc r highway to hell ganta shona jae. MegaMind film tar gan gulo choose korche jotil. Ha ha ha. Moja lage film ta. Being bad is one thing i'm good at. Then it hit me. If i'm the bad boy, i'll be the baddest of them all. I was destined to be a super villain. Ha ha ha. Shanjib dar ei ganta o shundor. Ekti cokhe kajol. Bashor rater por sokale ghum theke uthe cheleta tar ghumonto nobobodhu k dekhe ganta. Majhe majhe mone hoy, jodi kokhono biye kori tahole bou k onek valobashbo. Dukkho pete dibona, amr joto kostoi hok. Lojja lagche kotha ta bole. Ami meyeder sathe shadharonoto kotha bolte parina. Lojja lage. But phone a pari. Fun kori. Pat khet. Ekbar magura te giye golap er khet dekhechilam. Golap er abar khet hoy naki? Seta to bagan. Lol. Eta asolei khet chilo. Golap chas kore sell kore maybe. Bus a jaoar shomoy sorshe ful cokhe porbei. J jekhane jak. Khub common. But ami to aj dekhini. Aj to janala diye baire takiye chilam na aj. Englsih gan er pronunciation gulo alada. Shinedown devour ganta te, take it and take it and... Ai line guli, take in' take in' mone hoy. Amr english pronunciation naki valo. Johanna bolse. Amr finland er friend. Khub valo friend. But communication rakhte parina. Mukhe batash lagtese. Valo feel korchi. Waking up ganta sesh holo, 10 years er. Now shuru holo devour by shinedown. Devour, devour, suffocate your own empire. Devour, devour, it's your final hour. Devour, devour, stolen like a foreign soul. Valo gan. Prem piriter gan na. Timbaland er they way i are ganta shunbo. Jotil lage ganta. Thug it out till we get it right. Speed boat a uthbo ektu por. Speed boat a oi par. Then abar bus a.

Morning After Dark.

12:17pm

Ekta kotha sobai bole, Ratri joto ghonivuto hoy. sokal toto nikote ashe. Ata prokotir niyom. Er sathe manob jiboner kono mil asche bole amr jana nei. Asob asole manush k shantona deyar jonno bola hoy. Jokhon manush tar moner koste kator hoy tokhon ek dol sushil somaj takey ai bole shantona dae j tmr valo shomoy ashbe. Amr life a valo shomoy r ashbe na. Kokhono chilo o na. Ekakitte jorjorito ami. Kintu ai ekakitter vabnatuku o nijeke niye na. Amr fellow der k niye. Ekdin Rds k bolsilam, Amr khub kosto hoy ai vebe j amr kono bondhu nai FMC te. O bolsilo, agula vabish na, amra achi. Asolei tomra acho? Acho. But friendship jinista aro different, vast. FMC er karo sathe amr manoshikota mile na bolei fairdpur local chele der sathe amr friendship. Keu keu FMC te ashar agei amr friend abar bakira ekdom e notun. Now ekta intrumental shuntesi. Always with me with you bu Joe Satriani. Guitar play kortam jokhon tokhon shudhu guitar niyei pore thaktam saradin. Ekhon sei guitar diye amr vagne khela kore. Otar upos bose thakteo dekhsi.

Ai instrumental ta amr mon chuye jae. Kisukkhon age canteen a gelam. Faridpur er sobcheye baje cha ta khelam ektu. Ferar pothe Ma phone diyechilo. Mittha bolsi j ami akhon dhakar pothe. Started my journey. Amr ai choto vai gulake niyei amr family mone hoy. Ami mone hoy familyr boyojesstho. Ami kono kisu voy pai na. Atai amr boro shokti. Kintu ek jon k ami khub voy pai. R se holo amr cupid. Tar sathe kotha bolte o voy hoy. Voy pai. Se mone hoy prithibir ek matro human jakey ami voy pai. Tmr konthe ki prerona jage, jokhon amr name tmr mukhe ase. tmr cokhe ki osru jome jokhon amr chobi mone ase? Nah.Ami jani cupid amk niye kokhon vabe na.

Meyeder proty amr ektu biddesh ase. Tader shomporke amr dharona obastob na. Borong realistic. Exception obbosshoi ase. Meye der dhong dekhle khub birokto lage. Tara meye hishabe nijerder alada kore rakhe abong nijeder superior mone kore. Jemon, ekta chele ekta meye k vule dhakka dilei mohavarot osuddho hoye jabe. But same kaj ta ekta meye korle seta simple mistake. Ata bojha jeto practical class gulote. Jemon dissection class, ward etc. te. Meye ra nijera nijeder alada kore rakhe kintu tara meye chele shoman odhikar chay. Jemon tara chay chelera tader security confirm korbe, abar sei chelekei kharap bolbe. J oi cheleta mastan der sathe mishe.

Ekbar amr batch er ekta meyer mobile hariye gelo 250 bed er oikhane ekta hotel a. Nasta korte giyechilo ora. Sovabotoi ora amk phone dilo. Gelam, oi elakar neta der k niye boslam. Pore jante parlam churi hoise, hijack na. Hijack hole tulte partam. But churi ta different. Vodro manush o chor hote pare. Sei meyei ek shomoy bole, Shipon kharap cheleder sathe mishe. Oi neta ra amader shomaj a kharap lok. lol. Er por theke chinta korsilam meyeder k r help korbo na. Kintu keu help seek korle mana korte parina. Se chelei hok ba meye e hok. FMC te amr shottrur o upokar korar chesta kori. 13th batch er sathe amr jhamela chilo, tobuo 13 er hero vai ekbar locally bipode porsilo ami help korsi.

Koto din cupid k dekhina. Khub dekhte icche korche. Pic dekhbo? Or ekta pic ase jetate or hasita sorgiyo mane eternal mone hoy. Okey ekbar sms send korsilam keep smiling likhe. Ami okey kadte o dekhsi. Or sathe friendship thakleo ami okey campus er rani baniye rakhtam. Sudhu campus a na, puro faridpur a.

Kal jante parlam onekei naki amr ai blog visit kortese. Asob kotha jante partese. Tara ki amk aro kharap vabbe? Emnitei to campus er lokjon amk kharap mone kore. Vabuk. Ki ase jae? I don't care.
Breaking Benjamin er Diary of Jane gantar acoustic version ta awesome lage. I will try to find my name in the diary of CUPID. Ami cupid er exam er shomoy lobbing korsilam. Sir k bolte khub lojja lagtesilo. Tito sir hoyto jane. Uni amr shomporke shob khoj khobor rakhen. Pass korsilo. Pore shuni credit ta r ekjon nise. Ami to credit er jonno ata korinai. O exam theke ber hoye mon kharap kore bose chilo dekhe amr kharap lagse tai korsi. That's all. Ami class na korar cause o se. Ekbar bolsilam o pass kore chole jak, tarpor ami amr chinta korbo. Tai.........
Thak se kotha. sobai jane politics er jonno campus charte chacchi na, setai januk. Sir ra amk voy pae. But tito sir er jonno ato shahosh pae. Tito sir amr durbolota.
Ekbar political karone amr name a kotha choralo ami naki puja committee er kach theke chada dabi korsi. Taka. Sir shune bole, Impossible. Shipon atota niche namte pare na. Ami ato taka koroch korlam politics er piche r sei ami naki chada dabi korsi. ha ha ha, ajob manush.
True voice fmc erbar FB te likhlo ami naki dinning theke chada nei. Funny. Hm, ridoy hoyto nito. But ami ridoy na. Canteen! Chap a pore aminul k charte hoise. Onek manush k diye suparish koraise. Tito sir o eisob suparish upekkha korte parto na. Kintu amr sathe chukti hoise. Chukti ta holo, kono oniyom dekhlei taakey ber kore dibo. Akhon chelepele jodi amr kase complain na kore ami ki korte pari? Eka ekta somaj poriborton kora jae na. R ai shomaj er 20 years er obvash, ekdine ki change kora possible?
True voice fmc nijeke honest dabi kore, amr jom o naki se. Lol. But akhon jodi ami kaoke rager boshoborti hoye mardhor kori? Ekta honest lok nischoi nijer fault er karone r ekjon er shasti paoa mene nibe na. Tahole se nijer porichoy dik. Sotti ami takey kichu bolbona. R jodi seta na kore tahole se kono din e honest na. Ata amr biswas.
 Jai hok, ader bepar a kisu bolar nai amr. Sudhu bolbo ora geyanhin, obujh, nirbodh.


Amader shomaj er ek ongsho k amra shushil somaj boli. Shushil somaj, jader kono kaj baj nei sudhu golabaji, nitikotha. Ai shushil somaj tai amader shomaj takey kolushito korse. But amra tader shroddhavore mene choli. Salam dei.
Doctor howar temon kono icchai amr nei. Profession ta noble but now totally business. Parents ra o mone kore ekhane taka khoroch kora safe ebong lavjonok. Chele/meye doctor hole taka r taka. Tai invest kore. Prothom prothom medical a vortir por sobai etake noble proffesion hishebei ney, but 1st prof deyar por e max. er mentality change hoye jae. Tokhon takar dhandha.

Amr school life er house tutor amk Einstein bolto. Amr naki onek buddhi. Brain sharp but utilize korina. Mane tader mote porashonae utilize korina. Icche o hoyna kokhono. Manush k shikkhito korar ai system ta odvut, effective na.  Choto belar Kajla didir kobita ki kaje lagtese amader? Ba pani-pother juddho? Physics ta realistic. Kaje lage. Physics er law gulo human life er khettreo majhe majhe shotto, miliyr dekhle. Jemon, shokti obinosshorotar shutro, prithibite sum total energy same. Temni, prithibite sum total affection, love same. Age lok kom chilo antorikota beshi chilo, akhon lok barse antorikota komse. Amount same e ase. R ekta bepar. Each manusher moddhe valo kharap 2 tai ase. Dhori er total amount 100%. So, karo moddhe valo goon 60% thakle kharap goon thakbe 40%. Temni valo/kharap 70%/30% o hote pare, vice-versa.  Egulo amr bekkha. Vul o hote pare. Bolsilam na, prithibite prottekta jimish er e pokkhe abong bipokkhe jukti ase.

Bashay jabo aj. Jodio icche hocche na. Boring lage dhaka abong journey. Faridpur theke dhaka jaoar pothe proty ta jaegae amr friends ase. Ai dik diye, goalondo, manikgonj, savar. Oi dik diye vanga, maowa. Jai shamne diye but dekha korina. Ora rag o kore.
Edaning Bruce Springsteen er One step up gan tar preme pore gesi. Sara din shunleo valo lage. Aro kisu gan ase. Bus a gan gulo amr company. Ekhon shuntesilam, Lithium by Evanescence. Tar e ekta line, amr sesh kotha.

I wanna stay in love with my sorrow.

Unexpected morning.

10:46am
Tmr e kotha vebe ai desh gora hoyeche amr, amr e kostarjito porishrome dhora shekor. Pichutane fire esho, dekha holei hoy, amr e dorja khola robe chirokhon. Ganta amr favourite, kintu lyrics ta thik hoyeche kina janina. R ekta gan ase shironamhiner, Train, shopnochura 3 album er. Awesome ekta gan, awesome meaning. Anondonogor jar destination. Actually sobar e destination. Anondonogor bolte bujhiyeche sukh. Sobai sukher pichone chote. But keu e pae na. Ami gan bojhar chesta kori, theme ta. Hoyto dhorteo pari. Eka pakhi gantar theme dhorte parsilam, and music video ta dekhe confirm hoisi. Prithibir sob gan love kendrik. But new gan gulo sex kendrik. Love r sex ki ek? Bortoman prekkhapote hoyto ek. Ami mone kori na. Abar bullet kingba kobita ganta diye 52 r vasha andolon, 71 er muktijuddho abong bortoman political obostha bujhiyeche. Same prekkhapot. Jodi ferar pothe vul hoye jae. Age ferar pothe millitary der kase mara jaoar voy, akhon sontrashi der hate. Valo bujhiyeche. Jaik hok, ganer analysis now bad. Aj onek taratari ghum theke uthechi. Iccha chilo na. Mane iccha chilo kintu bujhte parinai it will work. Tai ai sokal ta unexpected. Weather ta valoi. Ghum er jonno perfect. Room a cha ase, ektu cha khai. Sathe cigarette. Speed er bottle a cha, speed er gondho. Kharap lagche na. Jodio speed er gondho amr shojjho hoyna. Sathe cha er gondho. 2 ta mile different kisu. Majhe majhe amr khub chapa kosto hoy. Cuz, jani. Kelly Clarkson er Cry ganta hocche now. Valo gan. Wow, jotil gan cholche now. Shironamhin er Eka. Ratri kalnto jirno shirno adho chader alo, Pitch dhala potha kokhono dhushor, kokhono ba kalo. Sarata poth jure ami eka, hete jai akash tarar pane cheye, nil jochonae srityr o vire, hariye jae mon adhare. Akhane adhar bolte ki kosto bujhiyeche? Tai e hobe hoyto. Tar srity take adhare niye jae mane kosto dae. Ekta kotha shunsilam, music is the medicine of broken heart. Perfect kotha. Asolei tai. But ami onek age theke music addicted. Gan na shunle valo lage na. Juice khete icche korche, matha o betha korche. Dekhi phone dae. Nai. Shala emon obostha fairdpur er. Ajob. Mathae ato pain nite parchina. Life ta hell hoye gelo. Bhoutist er Harano onuvuti gantar moto amr obostha. Ami jacchi chole akasher kase, adhar hoye thakbo jochonar pase. Jochnar alo mlan hoye thakbo. Shohoj ami sorol mone bachte cheyechi, asole noy jole pure charkhar hoyechi. Amr sotta venge chure ekdom ekakar. Oshoririr moto ami manush noi j r. Ami r manush nai. Kemon jeno hoye gechi. Omanush. Vota nerve. Feelingless. Nirlipto. Or kotha khub mone porche. Majhe majhe mone lav nai or kotha mone kore. Abar mone hoy sob kajei ki lav khujte hobe? Ai kaj ta no hoy lav charai kori. Keu keu bole ami amr life nije nosto kortesi. Nosto life r kivabe nosto korbo? Room a bose asi. Now eka. Ektu age choto vai chole gelo. Eka thaka amr obvash. 1st year theke room a eka thaki. Kaoke sathe nite icche hoyna. Eka thakar moddhe moja ase. Nijeke vitor theke feel kora jae. Kal rat er post gulo besh vul ache. Typo. Pc te type korsi. Fast typing. Mistake gulo dhorte parinai. Hoyto brain alert chilona. Dekhi pore shomoy pele correction korbo. Jai ektu nasta korte hobe. Khuda lagteche. Bye

Continuation.

<p>11:26pm<p> Amr blogging korar uddessho holo, Moner obekto kotha bolar safe maddhom. Eta akhono public ase, but private kore dibo. Amr srity shokti khub prokhor. Kisu sohoje vulina. Er upokarita o ase, opokarita o ase. Anyways, eshob thak.

Fmc te eshe meyeder shomporke kisu baje dharona hoise amr. Medical a vorti howar por meyera matir 5 feet upor diye hate. Chele der emon hoyna. Meyera boro hoye gese type vab. They feel proud. But at a situation their pride turns them down. Ami meyeder sathe temon mishi nai kokhono. Chotobelae Shejuty name er ekta meyer sathe tanki martam. Tar HSC exam er shomoy takley dump korlam. Bechari, ajo amk ovishap dae maybe. FMC te 1st 8 month meyeder sathe kotha bolini. Pore Medicine club er central conference er shomoy program er rehearsal er karone meyeder sathe kotha bolar shuru. Tokhon 13th batch er sathe holo jhamela. Leading dilam shovabotoi ami. Meyeder nekami khub birokto lage.

Ha ha ha, amio shironamhin er eka pakhi.



Kothata hotat keno bollam keu bujhbe na, but ami bujhbo. Jaihok ja bolsilam. 1st year sobcheye mojar bishoy chilo adda. Ami, showrav, zakir, jony r puspol dutta. Gan bajna kortal, ami guitar bajatam. Ami, showrav, lotus o ghursi kisudin. Amra rickshaw te uthlei gan dhortam. 1st gan chilo thakte jodi na pai tomae, aro chilo shironamhin er Tumi cheye acho tai ami pothe hete jai. Agulo amader jatio songgit chilo. Anonder chilo dingulo.


Amr ekta affair o chilo. True love. Affair ta phone a kotha bolte bolte hoy. Se 1st offer korlo, 1 month pore ami accept kori. Ekrokom baddho hoye accept kori. But jokhon kori tokhon emon vabei kori j kono khad chilo na.



Kisu din jabot srityr taronae achi. Memories. Not good one still enjoyable. Amr roll chilo 2. Mojar bepar holo amr name e last roll 2 hoye gelo. Jak atleast fmc te eshe ekta popular name pelam. Sob sir ra janto roll 2 is somekinda different from others. Well, they were much curios about me. But sir ra amk khub like korto. Sobai ekta kotha bolto, ora fazil. but beyadob na. Mohidur sir chilo ekta ajob chiriya. Class amk dar korabei. Jodio class kom canteen a beshi paoa jeto amk.


Electricity chole giyechilo. Matro ashlo. Load shedding er pokkhe o jukti ache. Din joto jacche electricity er chahida o barche. Jemon, akhon ek ek joner 2 ta kore mobile. BD te 15 koti manush. Er moddhe dhori 10 koti manus now mobile use kore. Tader moddhe 5 koti loker 2 ta set. Tahole total 15 koti mobile charge dote monthly koto mega watt electricity lage? Jukti eta. Kalponik chinta. Debate jinsta odvut. Atai jukti k establish korche. Prithibite prottekta jinish er pokkhe abong bipokkhe jukti ase. School a boshir sir debate shikhato. Mane korato r ki. Bashir sir tarchira prokitir. Chikon ekta bett diye khub speed a pa tyheke upor porjonto marto. R funny funny kotha kore muchki muchki hasto. Mojar ek jon manush.



Amr boi porte birokto lage. Golper boi o baddho hoye portam main boi er majhe rekhe. Practical type study amr beshi valo lage. Amk sadhin vabe porte dile ato dine kichu ekta abishkar kore feltam.


Kisu ta interrupted holam. R likhbo na, sho,oy hole ektu pore likhbo. Till then, bye.

Confused

<p>10:49pm<p> Ekhon bose bose chinta kortesi kal bashay jabo kina. Decision neya tough hoye jacche. Vaiyar flight porsu. Aj jaoar kotha cjilo. Gelam na. Kalam k cha r cigarette ante pathaisi. Kalam, chele ta onek valo. Honest, hard working. Buddhiman o bote, kintu sharp na brain. Sukkho sukkho kisu bepar o dhorte pare kina janina. Dekhi ektu FB te jai.





Facebook jinista akhon boring lage. Akhon Fb page open hotei dekhi congratulate korlo. I won something. weird. Net a onek kisu jitechi. Lucky person ami. Macbook jitlam now. LOL. Funny stuff. Bogus. Ekbar mobile a sms pelam, 5000 dollar jitsi. Call back korte hobe oi number a. Foreign number. Ekbar dekhalo oi number er tittle hishabe Bangladesh bank short form a uthlo. BgldshBnk erokom kisu uthsilo. Shohel er mobile theke amr ekta pic niye Fb te upload disilam. Now profile pic hishabe use kortesi. Saraf r zisa comment o korse dekhi. Valo. Proshongsha shunte kar na valo lage.




Ma phone dilo, kotha bollam. Kal dhaka jaor kotha confirm bole dilam. Upae nai.Jete hobe 2 din er beshi thakteo parbo na. Problem. College niye tension a thakbo. Dhaka city ta ekhon r amr valo lage na. Age mone kortam dhaka chara onno kothao thakle hole dom bondho hoye mara jabo. R akhon dhakae dom bondho hoye morar upokrom. Ek din a ekta beshi kaj kolpona kora jae na. R gorom er kotha naiba bollam.




Ami ekta jinis kheyal kore dekhlam, amr FMC choto vai der cheye local choto vai ra amr proty beshi careful. Phone kore khobor nicche, and rat a amr sathe karo thakte hobe kina, insecure feel korchi kina. Valo ora. Jodio amader so called society te tara kharap, bokhate, bokhe jaoa chelepele. But i think they are far more better than anyone of this campus. 1st year a ami karo sathe temon mistam na. Karon amr mentality r other FMCians der mentality milto na. FMCians ra beshi self orientated. Onnoder niye vabar shomoy tader nei.




Fmc te eshe ekta jinish lokkho korlam, Meye r cheler moddhe j dhoroner shomporkoi thakuk seta ek shomoy love a turn nibei. Sister bole daka shuru GF bole sesh. Oneke mohe pore affair kore. Beshi din tikey o na. Odvut life akahne. Oneke mone kore shudhu fmc te emon. Asole sob jaegae e same. Hostel life erokom.

After a meeting.

9:55pm
Here i am again. Ektu age ekta meeting korlam. Segulo bolte chaina. Politics ta blog theke alada rakhte chai. Kintu problem holo, amr politics er baire kisu nai. Ja e kori politics related hoye jae. Canteen a onekkhon aj adda marlam. Ami, shohel, sani r rafiq. Amra 1st year er golpo korchilam. Ami r shohel. R sani, rafiq oder batch er golpo bolchilo. Kisukhon por local friends with juniors ashlo college a. College er baire kichu sottojit ponthi lok der k dekhe. Show off type. Oder bidae diye room a eshe chelepele der niye meeting korlam. Actually, sobai k eksathe move korte bolsi. Ora maybe amk niye khub ekta chinta korena. Oder hoyto uchit sob shomoy amr sathe sathe thaka. K jane ora ki chinta kore. But oder ami alert thakte bollam. Ami maramarir voy paina. Voy pai jodi ami mair khai, tahole atogula cheler ki hobe? Tader poroborti rajnity tackle deyar ability ader nai. Kal bashay jaoa dorkar. Tension hocche ader niye. Amr pore nettritto dhore rakhar capability oder hoyni. Sottojit mukharje amr upor onek beshi khepa seta ami jani. Kintu amr kisu korte parbena tini nije. Problem holo, kisu chelepele ase jader baronto boyosh, kisu chinta na korei era decision ney. Tara political na. Tai tension beshi. Era maramari korar decision khub shohoje nite pare. Fate chinta kore na. Amader college a o erokom kisu chelepele ase. But ami jani, tara kaoke marte parbe na. Even ami bolleo na. Ora beshi vitu. Vab ney shahoshi. Showrav er kisu product ase amr sathe. Tara same showrav er moto. Biroktikor. Kajer cheye kotha beshi abong nijeke boro neta mone kora showrav er sobcheye boro criteria. Rds showrav k niye ekta kotha bolsilo, asolei kotha ta sotti. College BNP er polapan k ami marsi. Amr jaegae showrav hole naki shamim sir er kase giye nalish dito j bnp er committee r jonno kaj korte oder mana koren. Lol. Asolei showrav erokom kore. 1st year er ekta golpo shohel k boltesilam. Persia ekbar jalal sir er kase amr name a complain kore. Amr mathae agun dhore jae. R showrav protibad shorup persia k bole, tmr a kaj ta kora thik hoyni. R amk eshe bole, persia k ami bolsi or kajta kora thik hoyni abong persia ekta boka type meye. Kiser moddhe ki niye ashlo showrav. Abong porobortite persia r showrav er moddhe valo vab hoisilo. Ek sathe uposthapona korlo ekta program er. Ai chilo bepar. Jai pc diye dhuki blog a.

Olosh bikel!

6:15pm

Ektu age abar electricity gelo. Vaggish IPS ta thik kore diye gese. Ata janle maybe true voice fmc status er khorak hobe. ID ta amk mean kore status dae. Ete amr kono kosto ba dukkho nai. Sudhu majhe majhe ekta chinta ase mathae. FMC er jonno ato korlam, binimoye tara sob vule giye amr nesha kora ta k dekhlo. Aj bolte hoy oder, Shipon er moto kharap chele fmc te chilo bolei fmc student der jonno faridpur shohor ta ovoyoronno. Hm, kotha ta thik. Age amrai to koto complain petam eve teasing er. Akhon kore na, vabe shipon vai ba shipon er oshomman hobe. R ata niyeo dukkho hoto jodi oi ID tar user junior keu hoto. Karon hoyto tara bujhe na, abong ager problem gulo tara face koreni tai. Afsos ID ta senior der moddhe theke keu use kore. Tai majhe majhe ektu kosto hoy. Ami kokhono likhini age. Tai hoyto guchiye likhte parchina. Shomoy khub taratari chole jae. 5 ta bochor. Aj bashay jaoar kotha chilo. Jete parlam na. Icche koreni actually. Oi j, vota nerve amr. Emotion kaj korena. 5 bochor family chara. Er moddhe 4.5 bchor tito sir er sathe politics kore katalam. Age rajnity te ato kichu chaoar chilo na. Akhon doc politics niyeo vabi. Kichu adae korbo bole, pabo bole, orjon korbo bole. Campus er prothon dinta kolponae amr cokhe vasche. Orientation class. Ami boschilam gallary te dhukte bam diker row te. Last bench er ektu age. 1st anatomical position dekhaisilo hira sir. Rds chilo volunteer. Rajibur onek boro boro kotha bolsilo, moral words actually. Se hospital korbe, free treatment, gorib der medicine blah blah blah. Huh, sei theke amr mone hoise o ekta tout. R rds k mone hoise showing tendency beshi. Rat a chad bose gan shunte shunte kadtam. I don't deserve this. This medical or shit. Asole tokhon mastam mastan vab hoisilo amr. Guns, gang-fight everything.Thrilling mone hoto tokhon. Akhon silly mone hoy. FMC te ashar shomoy ma bolsilo, khobodar baba, maramari koris na okhane giye. Korsi naki akhane? Nah. I was passive. Shelter. Ja korsi faridpur zellae. Ami konokisu vikkha nei na. Adae kori ba orjon kori. Oita mone korsilo maybe jony vai. Ami 2 jon k khub hate kori. From the blackest part of my heart. Amr bondhu showrav r boro vai jony. Amr proty tader kokhono valobasha chilona. Ora ekjon clever r ekjon cunning. Oder kotha chinta kora bad. Ora foul. Jai hok, here i am, doing politics. Tobe ekta hishab milate parina. Shompa apu erokom holo keno? Jony showrav er jonno? Showrav er proty ki tar maya ache? Mone hoy na. Jonyr to nai e. Shartho jekhane, ora sekhane. Cha khaoa dorkar. Canteen a ashlam cha khete. Amr chair a shohel bose ache. Othate icche korlo na. Okey boste bole paser chair a boslam. Amk abloom a khawabe offer korlo. Janina keno korse, kintu amk na kore amr kono choto vai k korle beshi valo lagto amr kase. Deny korlam. Jabo na. Emnitei icche hocchilo na. Jak ektu golpo kori oder sathe. Tornur biyer golpo. Bablu cha dite onek deri kortese mone hocche. Kisu bole lav nai. Numb. Cha diye gelo matro. Dekhe mone hocchilo khub valo hoyeche cha. But chumuk deyar shomoy ami vabchilam, duniyar sobcheye baje cha ta khete hobe akhon. Eeekkk.

Klanto dupur.

3:46pm

Ghum theke uthe blog ta moner moto kore shajalam. Slideshow and other stuffs. Hope it does looking gorgeous. Most biroktikor jinis hishebe ato din amr kase chilo tamil movies. Kokhono dekhini. Ai 1st tamil movie dekhtesi. Shandhi r ami. Ektu age mosharrof r roby elo. Shuru holo faizlami. Jak film ta dekhi ektu. Sathe sathe lunch tao kore feli.

Govir rat.

2:31
Onek rat hoise. But electricity nai. Tar opekkhae achi ami. Keu ekjon gan shunche mobile a. Ful nebe na osru nibe bondhu, james er gan. Mosharrof r wasih kotha bolche baire. R ami ondhokare suye achi. Dorja janala khule. Ektu batash er ashae. Mon ta khub kharap lagche aj. Keno thik dhorte parchi na. Srawasty call diyechilo, dhorini. Majhe majhe mobile phone ta k khub birokto lage. Karo phone dhorte icche kore na. Shironamhin er Eka pakhi gan ta shunche se mobile a. Se ki bujhtese shironamhin ai ganta diye ki bujhate cheyeche? Amio ai gantar pakhi. Tobe ami besh shadhin. Tobuo shadhin na. Actually, keu e shadhin na. Ami ja korte pari seta r ek jon pare na. So, tar tulonae ami shadhin. Abar fine er tulonae ami poradhin. Atao apekkhik. Albert einstein ki abiskar kore gelo. Nothing is absolute, everything is relative. Yes, everything. Even our life, and the things happening everyday in our life. Maybe some say i've gone nuts. Nope, i'm completely okay. These days are very hard to me. I'm a bad guy! And according to rules, the bad guy doesn't get the girl. Lol. Yep, from Megamind. I'm self-proclaimed megamind. Ami jake like kori ami jani ta k ami pabona. Ashao korina. Sudhu, valobashi. Kisu paoar asha nei akhane, tobuo. Rater ai nitobdhota amr khub valo lage. Tiny sound o khub sposto. Jhijhi pokar dak, jonaki pokar alo. Sob miliye oshadharon. Bikrompur a dekhechilam arokom. Rickshaw diye jacchi r rastar dupashe jonaki pokar alo. Mone hocchilo biye barir lighting er moto. Room er shamne diye RD hattese. Bechara ghumate cheyechilo. Electricity setao korte dilo na takey. Seshe takey bonshonto chuye dilo. Lol. Oi gan ta gelo ektu amr dorojae eshe. Kokhon electricity ashbe? Dhat! Cha khabo. Ghumabo. Kal abar dhaka jabo. Icche ache. Dekhi. But jaoa ta important. Bag gochate hobe. Puraton shirt gulo niye jete hobe. Electricity elo matro. Ja bolchilam, new kisu t-shirt lagbe. Niye ashbo ebar. Aj ekta vul hoye geche. Laptop er wallpaper hishebe amr cupid er pic use korsilam, but kalam dekhe felse. Jodio se jane. Onno keu dekhe felle sorbonash. Amr o, meye tar o. Amr khub beshi na. Cha gorom korte dilam. Amr new ekta baje obvash rat a bottle a kore ana yusuf er cha khaowa. Kalam niye asche aj. R o ekta baje obvas, gan shunte shunte ghumano. Kisu gan mp3 player a niye sound system a bazano. Sara rat cholte thake gan. Akhon ghumano dorkar. Cha cigarette kheye ghumanor chesta kori. Dekhi ghum ase kina. Good night guys!

Padmar par a.

9:10

Kono planning charai padmar par a chole ashlam. Kalam ask korlo ashbo kina, raji hoye gelam. Mosharrof, kalam, sani, leon, sarowar r kaosar. Mosharrof now pic tulche. Sani gan gacche, akhon sobai gun gun korche. Block a bose achi. Ashar shomoy 1st year er kisu srity mone porlo. Hasi pelo. Kotota funny weird kaj kortam tokhon. Ekbar raju k to naked e kore dilam. Pore pic tulchilam, or kannakatir por delete kore diyechilam pic ta. Sompurno naked. Ekbar sobai card othoba term a fail kore celebrate korte ashchilam. Oi shomoy akhane dure ekta jaegae surjomukhir bagan chilo. Se ashchilam batcher meyeder sathe. Sara, bipasha, ritu, shima, ovi r ami. Ami r sara hatte hatte oi surjomukhir bagane giyechilam. Ekbar winter er kothin shet a dinar shimar kotha moto vor bela panite jhap dilo. College program er por ashchilam oi vor belae. Se ki paglami. Sara hoyto amk like korto. Onek kaj diye o bujhiyeche. But or proty amr kono feelings e chilo na. Somaj rokkha kortam. Mane batchmate ra keu kisu bolle na korte parina. Local friend der satheo onk aschi. Max. time sobji khetam. Ha ha ha. Nodir parer pinik kothin jinis. Kalam er kole matha diye block er upor shuye achi. Engine boat er awaj. Birokto lagche. Nah, kokhon sesh hobe ai awaj? Biroktikor. Kalam mathae hat bolacche. Valoi lagche. Ektu jore tanle aro beshi valo lagto, tobe bolte icche korche na. Akashe aj tara kom. Du-ekta sposto bojha jacche. Dure onek dure erta alo. Char elaka. Name ki otar? Dikrir char naki north channel? Dikrir char e hobe hoyto. Kokhono jai nai. Faridpur er onek lok amk chine. Political base a. Sobai sur miliye gan gacche. Tumi cheye acho tai ami pothe hete jai, hete hete bohudur, bohudur jete chai. Amio chai. Kintu amr jonno keu cheye nai. ha ha ha. Hoyto ache ami janina. Shironamhin khub valo ekta band. Oder gan er meaning gulo khub shundor. But koy jon bujhe? Sobai gan shone, but sur-e sur-e moner obekto kotha keu bojhena. Ami basicaly english gan beshi shuni, choto bela thekei. Uff! Birokto lagche ai gan ta. Pagla haoa, james er. OMG! Sani faizlami kore asif er gan gaite chailo r shuru hoye gelo. Plz guys stop that shit. Leon anmone poth chola ganta gacche, opor dike sani r mosharrof dak diyechen doyal amare gaoa shuru korlo. Jak, gan thak. Valoi lagche. Tobe totota valo na, jotota laga uchit. K jeno bollo amr nerve gulo vota hoye geche. Kothata sotti. Asolei, choto choto onuvuty gulo r nara dae na, sporsho kore na amk. Aito ami. Ghumate icche korche ekhane. Cokh bondho kore rakhi. Kolponar jogote ektu hariye jai.

Shahid minar a bose.

8:15pm

Azan dicche. Eshar azan. Ami bose achi shahid minar a. Electricity nai.kotha theke jeno ekta baccha r ekta mohilar kothar awaj veshe asche. Baccha tar ma e hobe hoyto. Akase chad ta ardhek utheche aj. Mlan alo dicche. Amr pase rafiq bose ache. Kaoke phone a try korche maybe. Network pacche na, naki phone dhorche na. Jak obosheshe phone dhorlo, kotha bolche. College er e kono friend hoyto. Electricityr opekkha korchi. Shahid minar a onek mosha o. Ekta political khobor bole rafiq amr mind distract kore dilo. Jatio nirbachon boshoyok. Jai ota sheikh hasina bujhbe. Ami ektu nijeke niye vabar shomoy peyechi aj, nijeke niyei vabi. 1st year ekta srity mone pore gelo. Kono ekdin rat 3 ta baje amra football khelte nemechilam. Arokom alo chilo sedin. K k chilam jeno? Ami, bappi, showrav, faisal ki chilo? Mone asche na. Din ta chilo eid er chutir ager kono ek din. Senior der kas theke eid er selami ba eidee tulechilam. Valoi tk uthechilo, sathe nasta pani free. Ha ha ha. LH theke ek jon er voice shona gelo. Sathe r o keu ache nischoi. Tobe ato jore kotha bolar ki ache? Ajob lage. Meye manush, ajob chiriya. Prithibite 2 catagoryr manush ache, ekta holo manush r ekta meye manush. Asole prithibite sristo sobkichu e cheleder jonno sristy. Meye manush o. Kothata kemon kemon lagleo sotti. Adam er jonno eve srity hoyechilo, tar ekakitto dur korar jonno. Eve er jonno adam k na. Tahole chele ra prime. But meyeder bortoman dharona, meyerai prime. Atar jonno dayi amarai. Jemon FB tei dekha jae, ekta meyer pic jodo bajei hok comment gulo hoy otironjito. Lol. Faltu status a o huge comment. So, meyera to vabbei se rajrani. Lol. Tachara meyeder brain bolte kichu ache bole amr mone hoy na. Ai otironjito comment gula te tara ato khusi hoy jeno tader eid. Funny. Majhe majhe amr mone hoy ami somajbirodhi. Ai shomaj er kichue amr valo lage na. Sobai jar jar kaje besto, jar jar sartho niye besto. Ai prithibita chilo amader jonno, amr jonno. Aj amk, amaderke hote hoy ai prithibir moto kore, so ami prithibir jonno. Amra prthibir jonno.

Afternoon

6:12

Hear i am. Akhon ami suye asi amr room a. Ektu age cha khete gelam canteen a, ektu por abar o jabo. Sathe chilo shandhi r robi. Ai 2 jon k ami besh ador kori, valobashio bote. Ora 2 jon ki bojhe? Hoyto, hoyto na. Sandhi akhon amr pc te games khlche. Ubuntu OS use kori, beshi games nai o. Jai hok, suye suye chinta korchilam. Ki? Rajnity? Na Monnity? 2 ta tei kichu nity ache. Tobe ami personaly nity jinista like korina. Adeshe jara beshi nity nity kore, tader e kono nity thake na. Nity jinista defence hishebe nijeke bachanor jonno use kore. Sandhi chole gelo now. Ora bujhei na oder ki korte hobe, ki korte hobena. Odvut bepar. Oder ki kono aim o nai? Janina. Amader college rajnity mrito obosthae ami hate niyechilam. 1st year a jokhon rajnity kortam tokhon onek shopno chilo hoyto sobar kintu amr asongka chilo ai din gulir. Amr prediction akhon porjoto sothik. Ami khub attobisshashi. Mane self-confidant. Ai attobisshas e aj amk akhane niye ashche. Sobar e klanti seshe kothao matha rakhar jaega ase karona karo mone. Amr nei. Chesta o kokhono korini. Ek chestae bertho hoye. Bertho hoya bolle vul hobe. Ai fate ta o amra jantam. Amader relation kono ek jaegae giye terminate korbe. Tobuo mana ta ektu khothin hoya e savabik. Akhon boli, I'm single and disease free. Lol. Funny. Ha tobe ata sotto amionk din pore ek jon pochondo korechi. Vaggo ta amon atao amr hobe na ami jani. Tai bertho chesta o korini. Majhe majhe abeg dhore rakhte parina, tai sms pathai. Setao j amr uchit na ami jani. Kintu dil hay to manta nehi. Ha ha ha. Hm, mon mane na. Majhe majhe shasruddhokor kosto hoy. Mone hoy dom bondho hoye jacche. Mittha bolbo na, ami akhon intoxicated obothae achi. Jai ektu cha kheye asi abar. Bye

Editing.

<i>5:09<p>Well, here i am again. Umm, i wake at about 2pm. Done something important!!! Now it is 5:13pm, browsing net. Johanna knocked me at Facebook. Like usual, started asking me question.I started blogging, actually i'll use it as my diary. and if people want to know what i'm doing they can follow this. I'll share something i can't tell anybody here at FMC. Yeah, our committee is expired. I was telling this to johanna at FB. Things here seems too difficult. Politics. I know we'll win. Fine,, Farhan is going dhaka now. This work can be done. i know.

Midnight or early morning?

4:02am

It's almost early morning, but i couldn't slept at all. What hell is wrong with me? Realy unsure. Everyone thinks i'm almost a happy guy. Lol.. Am i? Not sure. Often i ask myself this question. But ans always remains blank. I searched for this ans everywhere, but couldn't found. I tired of running rampant. So tired.

1st post

3:17

Well, today is the 1st day of my blogging. I was about to start it earlier but wasn't able to... Cuz you know i'm too busy... Since i've started this politics and shit all my time killed through it... Anyways, i'm about to sleep now... Need some chill, seriously... I'm realy gone nuts, having bad days for sure... But i know it won't last so much... Still i can't get my mind off her...