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Ektu age abar electricity gelo. Vaggish IPS ta thik kore diye gese. Ata janle maybe true voice fmc status er khorak hobe. ID ta amk mean kore status dae. Ete amr kono kosto ba dukkho nai. Sudhu majhe majhe ekta chinta ase mathae. FMC er jonno ato korlam, binimoye tara sob vule giye amr nesha kora ta k dekhlo. Aj bolte hoy oder, Shipon er moto kharap chele fmc te chilo bolei fmc student der jonno faridpur shohor ta ovoyoronno. Hm, kotha ta thik. Age amrai to koto complain petam eve teasing er. Akhon kore na, vabe shipon vai ba shipon er oshomman hobe. R ata niyeo dukkho hoto jodi oi ID tar user junior keu hoto. Karon hoyto tara bujhe na, abong ager problem gulo tara face koreni tai. Afsos ID ta senior der moddhe theke keu use kore. Tai majhe majhe ektu kosto hoy. Ami kokhono likhini age. Tai hoyto guchiye likhte parchina. Shomoy khub taratari chole jae. 5 ta bochor. Aj bashay jaoar kotha chilo. Jete parlam na. Icche koreni actually. Oi j, vota nerve amr. Emotion kaj korena. 5 bochor family chara. Er moddhe 4.5 bchor tito sir er sathe politics kore katalam. Age rajnity te ato kichu chaoar chilo na. Akhon doc politics niyeo vabi. Kichu adae korbo bole, pabo bole, orjon korbo bole. Campus er prothon dinta kolponae amr cokhe vasche. Orientation class. Ami boschilam gallary te dhukte bam diker row te. Last bench er ektu age. 1st anatomical position dekhaisilo hira sir. Rds chilo volunteer. Rajibur onek boro boro kotha bolsilo, moral words actually. Se hospital korbe, free treatment, gorib der medicine blah blah blah. Huh, sei theke amr mone hoise o ekta tout. R rds k mone hoise showing tendency beshi. Rat a chad bose gan shunte shunte kadtam. I don't deserve this. This medical or shit. Asole tokhon mastam mastan vab hoisilo amr. Guns, gang-fight everything.Thrilling mone hoto tokhon. Akhon silly mone hoy. FMC te ashar shomoy ma bolsilo, khobodar baba, maramari koris na okhane giye. Korsi naki akhane? Nah. I was passive. Shelter. Ja korsi faridpur zellae. Ami konokisu vikkha nei na. Adae kori ba orjon kori. Oita mone korsilo maybe jony vai. Ami 2 jon k khub hate kori. From the blackest part of my heart. Amr bondhu showrav r boro vai jony. Amr proty tader kokhono valobasha chilona. Ora ekjon clever r ekjon cunning. Oder kotha chinta kora bad. Ora foul. Jai hok, here i am, doing politics. Tobe ekta hishab milate parina. Shompa apu erokom holo keno? Jony showrav er jonno? Showrav er proty ki tar maya ache? Mone hoy na. Jonyr to nai e. Shartho jekhane, ora sekhane. Cha khaoa dorkar. Canteen a ashlam cha khete. Amr chair a shohel bose ache. Othate icche korlo na. Okey boste bole paser chair a boslam. Amk abloom a khawabe offer korlo. Janina keno korse, kintu amk na kore amr kono choto vai k korle beshi valo lagto amr kase. Deny korlam. Jabo na. Emnitei icche hocchilo na. Jak ektu golpo kori oder sathe. Tornur biyer golpo. Bablu cha dite onek deri kortese mone hocche. Kisu bole lav nai. Numb. Cha diye gelo matro. Dekhe mone hocchilo khub valo hoyeche cha. But chumuk deyar shomoy ami vabchilam, duniyar sobcheye baje cha ta khete hobe akhon. Eeekkk.