Morning After Dark.

12:17pm

Ekta kotha sobai bole, Ratri joto ghonivuto hoy. sokal toto nikote ashe. Ata prokotir niyom. Er sathe manob jiboner kono mil asche bole amr jana nei. Asob asole manush k shantona deyar jonno bola hoy. Jokhon manush tar moner koste kator hoy tokhon ek dol sushil somaj takey ai bole shantona dae j tmr valo shomoy ashbe. Amr life a valo shomoy r ashbe na. Kokhono chilo o na. Ekakitte jorjorito ami. Kintu ai ekakitter vabnatuku o nijeke niye na. Amr fellow der k niye. Ekdin Rds k bolsilam, Amr khub kosto hoy ai vebe j amr kono bondhu nai FMC te. O bolsilo, agula vabish na, amra achi. Asolei tomra acho? Acho. But friendship jinista aro different, vast. FMC er karo sathe amr manoshikota mile na bolei fairdpur local chele der sathe amr friendship. Keu keu FMC te ashar agei amr friend abar bakira ekdom e notun. Now ekta intrumental shuntesi. Always with me with you bu Joe Satriani. Guitar play kortam jokhon tokhon shudhu guitar niyei pore thaktam saradin. Ekhon sei guitar diye amr vagne khela kore. Otar upos bose thakteo dekhsi.

Ai instrumental ta amr mon chuye jae. Kisukkhon age canteen a gelam. Faridpur er sobcheye baje cha ta khelam ektu. Ferar pothe Ma phone diyechilo. Mittha bolsi j ami akhon dhakar pothe. Started my journey. Amr ai choto vai gulake niyei amr family mone hoy. Ami mone hoy familyr boyojesstho. Ami kono kisu voy pai na. Atai amr boro shokti. Kintu ek jon k ami khub voy pai. R se holo amr cupid. Tar sathe kotha bolte o voy hoy. Voy pai. Se mone hoy prithibir ek matro human jakey ami voy pai. Tmr konthe ki prerona jage, jokhon amr name tmr mukhe ase. tmr cokhe ki osru jome jokhon amr chobi mone ase? Nah.Ami jani cupid amk niye kokhon vabe na.

Meyeder proty amr ektu biddesh ase. Tader shomporke amr dharona obastob na. Borong realistic. Exception obbosshoi ase. Meye der dhong dekhle khub birokto lage. Tara meye hishabe nijerder alada kore rakhe abong nijeder superior mone kore. Jemon, ekta chele ekta meye k vule dhakka dilei mohavarot osuddho hoye jabe. But same kaj ta ekta meye korle seta simple mistake. Ata bojha jeto practical class gulote. Jemon dissection class, ward etc. te. Meye ra nijera nijeder alada kore rakhe kintu tara meye chele shoman odhikar chay. Jemon tara chay chelera tader security confirm korbe, abar sei chelekei kharap bolbe. J oi cheleta mastan der sathe mishe.

Ekbar amr batch er ekta meyer mobile hariye gelo 250 bed er oikhane ekta hotel a. Nasta korte giyechilo ora. Sovabotoi ora amk phone dilo. Gelam, oi elakar neta der k niye boslam. Pore jante parlam churi hoise, hijack na. Hijack hole tulte partam. But churi ta different. Vodro manush o chor hote pare. Sei meyei ek shomoy bole, Shipon kharap cheleder sathe mishe. Oi neta ra amader shomaj a kharap lok. lol. Er por theke chinta korsilam meyeder k r help korbo na. Kintu keu help seek korle mana korte parina. Se chelei hok ba meye e hok. FMC te amr shottrur o upokar korar chesta kori. 13th batch er sathe amr jhamela chilo, tobuo 13 er hero vai ekbar locally bipode porsilo ami help korsi.

Koto din cupid k dekhina. Khub dekhte icche korche. Pic dekhbo? Or ekta pic ase jetate or hasita sorgiyo mane eternal mone hoy. Okey ekbar sms send korsilam keep smiling likhe. Ami okey kadte o dekhsi. Or sathe friendship thakleo ami okey campus er rani baniye rakhtam. Sudhu campus a na, puro faridpur a.

Kal jante parlam onekei naki amr ai blog visit kortese. Asob kotha jante partese. Tara ki amk aro kharap vabbe? Emnitei to campus er lokjon amk kharap mone kore. Vabuk. Ki ase jae? I don't care.
Breaking Benjamin er Diary of Jane gantar acoustic version ta awesome lage. I will try to find my name in the diary of CUPID. Ami cupid er exam er shomoy lobbing korsilam. Sir k bolte khub lojja lagtesilo. Tito sir hoyto jane. Uni amr shomporke shob khoj khobor rakhen. Pass korsilo. Pore shuni credit ta r ekjon nise. Ami to credit er jonno ata korinai. O exam theke ber hoye mon kharap kore bose chilo dekhe amr kharap lagse tai korsi. That's all. Ami class na korar cause o se. Ekbar bolsilam o pass kore chole jak, tarpor ami amr chinta korbo. Tai.........
Thak se kotha. sobai jane politics er jonno campus charte chacchi na, setai januk. Sir ra amk voy pae. But tito sir er jonno ato shahosh pae. Tito sir amr durbolota.
Ekbar political karone amr name a kotha choralo ami naki puja committee er kach theke chada dabi korsi. Taka. Sir shune bole, Impossible. Shipon atota niche namte pare na. Ami ato taka koroch korlam politics er piche r sei ami naki chada dabi korsi. ha ha ha, ajob manush.
True voice fmc erbar FB te likhlo ami naki dinning theke chada nei. Funny. Hm, ridoy hoyto nito. But ami ridoy na. Canteen! Chap a pore aminul k charte hoise. Onek manush k diye suparish koraise. Tito sir o eisob suparish upekkha korte parto na. Kintu amr sathe chukti hoise. Chukti ta holo, kono oniyom dekhlei taakey ber kore dibo. Akhon chelepele jodi amr kase complain na kore ami ki korte pari? Eka ekta somaj poriborton kora jae na. R ai shomaj er 20 years er obvash, ekdine ki change kora possible?
True voice fmc nijeke honest dabi kore, amr jom o naki se. Lol. But akhon jodi ami kaoke rager boshoborti hoye mardhor kori? Ekta honest lok nischoi nijer fault er karone r ekjon er shasti paoa mene nibe na. Tahole se nijer porichoy dik. Sotti ami takey kichu bolbona. R jodi seta na kore tahole se kono din e honest na. Ata amr biswas.
 Jai hok, ader bepar a kisu bolar nai amr. Sudhu bolbo ora geyanhin, obujh, nirbodh.


Amader shomaj er ek ongsho k amra shushil somaj boli. Shushil somaj, jader kono kaj baj nei sudhu golabaji, nitikotha. Ai shushil somaj tai amader shomaj takey kolushito korse. But amra tader shroddhavore mene choli. Salam dei.
Doctor howar temon kono icchai amr nei. Profession ta noble but now totally business. Parents ra o mone kore ekhane taka khoroch kora safe ebong lavjonok. Chele/meye doctor hole taka r taka. Tai invest kore. Prothom prothom medical a vortir por sobai etake noble proffesion hishebei ney, but 1st prof deyar por e max. er mentality change hoye jae. Tokhon takar dhandha.

Amr school life er house tutor amk Einstein bolto. Amr naki onek buddhi. Brain sharp but utilize korina. Mane tader mote porashonae utilize korina. Icche o hoyna kokhono. Manush k shikkhito korar ai system ta odvut, effective na.  Choto belar Kajla didir kobita ki kaje lagtese amader? Ba pani-pother juddho? Physics ta realistic. Kaje lage. Physics er law gulo human life er khettreo majhe majhe shotto, miliyr dekhle. Jemon, shokti obinosshorotar shutro, prithibite sum total energy same. Temni, prithibite sum total affection, love same. Age lok kom chilo antorikota beshi chilo, akhon lok barse antorikota komse. Amount same e ase. R ekta bepar. Each manusher moddhe valo kharap 2 tai ase. Dhori er total amount 100%. So, karo moddhe valo goon 60% thakle kharap goon thakbe 40%. Temni valo/kharap 70%/30% o hote pare, vice-versa.  Egulo amr bekkha. Vul o hote pare. Bolsilam na, prithibite prottekta jimish er e pokkhe abong bipokkhe jukti ase.

Bashay jabo aj. Jodio icche hocche na. Boring lage dhaka abong journey. Faridpur theke dhaka jaoar pothe proty ta jaegae amr friends ase. Ai dik diye, goalondo, manikgonj, savar. Oi dik diye vanga, maowa. Jai shamne diye but dekha korina. Ora rag o kore.
Edaning Bruce Springsteen er One step up gan tar preme pore gesi. Sara din shunleo valo lage. Aro kisu gan ase. Bus a gan gulo amr company. Ekhon shuntesilam, Lithium by Evanescence. Tar e ekta line, amr sesh kotha.

I wanna stay in love with my sorrow.