Mourning

10:55 pm


Hey guys! I'm back now. Time's 10:55 pm. Well, this day is not good for fmc. One of her student died. Another star has fallen from the sky. All other students are mourning for this death.

Onek khon kisu likhte parlam na. Majhe majhe kisu lekha possible hoyna. Aj dintai kharap. Sokale ghum theke uthe class a na giye abar ghumaisi. Goto rat a amr ghum hoyni. Dupureo ghumate parlam na. Oshojjho lagche. Meyeta alpo boyosh a mara gelo, unexpected.Accident, huh? Kokhon hoy kivabe hoy keu bolte pare na. Kal 19th batch er chele meyera janaza porte jabe. Aj e jete cheyechilo, but tito sir mana korse. Jodi abar kono accident hoy. Pore ora amk janalo kalam er maddhome. Sir k phone kore ask korlam bollo rat a pathayo na. Amio mana kore dilam. Sokal 5 tae jete bollam. Micro bus thik kore disi 2 ta.  Jabe mawa hoye. Ferry o DC k diye thik koriye rakhlam. 25 jon jabe. 5 jon meye jabe. Akhon porjonto atai jani. Tobe sobcheye annoying bepar holo, orna golae pechiye mara gelo kivabe? R atota careless kivabe holo meyeta? Ornae jodi shamlate na pare, tahole kivabe hobe. Bujhina. Onek meyekei dekhsi orna careless vabe golae jhuliye rakhe rickshaw te chorar shomoy. R ekta jinis dekhlam aj, facebook a showing tendency. Jemon kar age k status dite pare. Abar keu keu doa o kore facebook a. R keu keu doa korte bole sobai k. Ata thik ache. Sobai k bad news ta janiye doa korar jonno request kora ta better and logical but facebook a Allah r kase doa kora ta valo mone hoy na amr. Ata showing tendency mone hoy. Facebook a doa korle ki Allah dekhe, r mone mone jara doa kore tader ta dekhena? Ajob. Jai hok ata to mojar factor na. Jevabei koruk, doa korlei mone mon theke.


12:02am

Valo lagche na kisu. Puro college a shoker chaya. Kal college bondho kore dei. Hm, deya jae. College bondho kore shok dibos hishabe palon kora uchit.  Tobe ami ekta jinish bujhtesina, oi meye k ami chini na tobuo amr ato kharapn lagtese ken? Hoyto, mrittu tar sob bepar jantesi and mrittu k kendro kore kichu sohojogita o korsi bolei. Aj amr 01715 numberta arekta handset a use korsi, tito sir phone dise, amito r bujhi nai, oi set a save o kora chilo na. Ami ask kortesi, hello k? Sathe network o problem korlo valo kore shunte parchilam na. Sir khpe giye bollo, Shipon na tmi? Ami bollam ha apni k?  Sir bole ami doctor tito, ki number save nai? Pore bollam sorry sir onno set use kortesi to, tai. Meytar ki obostha jante chailo sir. Bollam, all hope has gone. But death declare kore nai.  Sir bollo, akhon amr ki kora uchit. Ami bollam, apni coelleg ekdin bondho kore shok dibos palon koriye denr pore ekta milad diye diben. Sir bollo, ha, to kal tomra koyekjon aso, kore dibo.

LiveJournal er password match korche na. Tai abar password change korlam. LiveJournal, Blogger r wordpress a amr blog. Amr blog a post korar ekta easy way ache. 3 ta blog er 3 ta mailbox ache, segulare post ta mail kore dilei publish hoye jae. Emailid verified kore eta korte hoise. Facebook akhon birokto lage. Tai blogging. R facebook a sob kichu lekha o jae na. Firefox er 3 ta tab a 3 ta blog open. Nah, close kore net disconnect kori. Ami akhono dinner kori nai. Khub khuda lagche. Jai kheye ashi.


12:50am

Dinner sesh korlam. Ami majhe majhe ekta jinish chinta kori. Seta holo amr arokom obstha hole ki holo? Teachers, students level a ki rokom impact porto? FMC te keu ki kosto peto? Keu keu hoyto kosto peto abar keu keu peto na. Max. kosto peto naki max peto na? Surely bolte partesina. Tobe amr ja mone hoy ta holo mrittur por villain o hero hoye jae amader somaj a. Jai hok, cha khete icche korchilo. Ek choto vai k diye yusuf er cha analam. Bottle a kore. Akhon gorom korchi. Kal 19th batch er oder sathe 18th batch koyekjon o jabe. Abong commillar chele hishabe 16th er mahfuz o jabe. Valo.
Bottle a kore cha khete valo e lage. Obvas ta beshi diner na. Tobe rat a cha khawar obvash onek ager. Akhon khub lazy hoye gechi. Tachara rat kore amr baire jaoa o akhon safe na. Zellar politics ektu gorom ekhon. Zellar president Monir vai k ami marsilam. Akhon protisodh nileo nite pare.
Idaning khub beshi olosh hoye gechi. Baire jeteo valo lagena. Saradin chair a boshe gan shuni r net surfing.
Valo lagche na now. Tobe valo na laga kichue na, sudhu matro ekta manoshik rog. Light niviye dite icche hocche but tohale type korte parbona. Dekhi kono buddhi kora jae kina. Ekta buddhi ashche. Light bondho kore table lamp on kore dilei to hoy. Tai korlam. Now valo lagtese.
Shironamhin er gan shuni. Train. Awesome ganta. I love it. Gantar summury holo, manush jane na jene shudhu shukher pichone chote, but sukh dhora dae na.  Asolei manush protiniyoto sukher piche chote but kothao sukh paena. Ami paina. Akhon Onek asha niye ganta shuntesi. Atao jotil gan. Onek shobuz er prante tmi thako ekaki. Ami dhushor dhushor hoye jege thaki. Ata mane hocche onek pranobonto manush er sathe thekeo tmi eka thako, tmr mone ami dhushor hoye shara dae. Dhushor bolte mlan hoye bujhiyeche. Puro gantar meaning obak kora shundor. Shironamhin er Zia vai ekta genius. gan gulo max. e tar lekha. Tar kolpona shokti ato prokhor. Icche ghuri ganta diye maybe bujhaise j life a tmr icche moto live korom but kichu onushashon mene icche moto jibon shajao. Agulo amr mone hoy. Amr view. R ekjon r ekrokom vabte pare. Tobe eka pakhi ganta niye ami jerokom kolpona korechilam music video tae se rokom e bujhiyeche. So, maybe tader thinking r amr thinking almost same. Bondho janala album er Eka ganta shunle amr khub loneliness feel hoy. Bhalobash megh ganta shunle Cupid k miss kori. Ki j obostha amr. Allah e janen. Rat a ghumnao to mone hoy vulei gechi. Ki j korbo bujhte parina. Bachte icche hoyna r. Ato problem, ato kosto. Jiboner proty maya chole geche.
R ekta jotil  jinish holo Artcell. Genius. Utshaber Utshahe gan ta shunchi now. Amr dharona cheka khawa manush der k nesha na kore notun vabe bachar ahoban janano hoyeche ganta te.
Cupid k onk din dekhina. Khub dekhte icche korche. But possible na. Or hashimakha ekta pic wallpaper a dilam. Dekhchi okey. Or hashi, opolok dristy. Sob miliye ekta angel from heaven. Or dan cokher niche ekta gol kalo spot ache. Halka kalo. Bojha jae na valo kore na dekhle. Ota onno okey maybe aro beshi shundor lage. Ata ekta pohela boishakh er pic. Shari pora. Kaner dul ta maybe matir. Mone hocche. Asb er bepar a idea nai amr. Chul gulo halka lalche lagche. khub silky o mone hocche. Ekbar o ekta chulniye jotno kore rekhe diyechilam. Ekta chul to, tai hariye felsi. Shamnashamni to kono din bolte parbona tai pic takey boli, I Love You Cupid. Love you so much. Ha ha ha. No reply.
Table a pa tule adho shoya hoye achi rocking chair a. Aram lagche.
Amader ovidhan a mitthe hoy onubad. Oboshad, ashroy khoje, manusher ondhokar ghore. Drutiman, drutirodh hoye anmone mene ney porajoy.
Utshober utshahe gantar ai line gulo jotil lage.

1:47am

Onek rat holo. Ekta film dekhi. Ager dekha kono film. favorite part gulo dekhi.


2:24am

300 movie ta joto dekhi totoi valo lage. How brave 300 warrior killed lacs of persian army. Now these days, no one will stand up against rivals for country where death is so certain. Salute to them and their honored death. I am free man like them. I have nothing to loose nothing to gain.

2:58am

Now i have to go. Feeling tired still not sleepy. Bye guys! And of course a good night kiss on the forehead of my Cupid. Bye.