Fight

5:09pm.



Hey guys. In case you have noticed i didn't slept last night, so im tired. But, not sleepy yet. I need medication badly. Maybe i've got some psychiatric problem, nor maybe not. At 10 of morning i was supposed to sleep for a while but my friend came to visit me, and we had something to eat. Well, hope you guys have enough brain to got it. Then i was sitting at canteen like usual. Had couple of cups of tea and few sticks of cigarette. Then i brought back myself to my room and started facebooking. I also checked my MySpace account after few long months. They've upgraded their features. Now it looks much better.



In the meantime i was enjoying the movie Troy. This is awesome. Specially the dialogues of Achilles. Achilles, a great warrior. But what were they fighting for? Well, Paris fought for Love, Hector fought for his Land, Agamemnon fought for Power, Menelaus  fought for honour and it was Achilles, who fought for glory.

Everyone of them had a reason to fight. But what I'm fighting for? Land? That is not in trouble apparently. Love? I don't have anyone to love or loves me back. Power? It never worth's this fighting. I had power before and i will have. Then was it honour? People honoured me when i took my first step into this campus. So, maybe it is for glory. Maybe i'm fighting for glories sake. Yes, it is glory. I want these guys of fmc will remember name when i leave this college. My buddies will carry on my name.

In my 1st year of this campus these college crews used to tell me some stories of of elders. About their crazy works indeed. I've done far more than them. Why don't these guys will not remember my name. Ofcourse they will. They will tell my stories to our descendants. An they will theirs. This is how it will pass on. I was one of them who felt the politics between clubs are nasty, spoiled, cheap. Then we dreamt for the real politics. Bangladesh Student league. Well, in our country the idea of politics has been spoiled. Still i tried to be reasonable. I wanted all the students will live some happy life together. But all we know, if anyone wants to do something good, bad will stand up against it. And surely it has. People are talking about me, my bad habits. Well, as i'm a human, i might have something bad in me. But why do you good people will look upon the bad side. Why don't you guys see the good lies on every man. It says that, bad things stays at peoples back side, that's why they can't see their own bad. Certainly i fixed a mirror in me, which reflects my bad  upon my eys and i can see them. I know what's bad in me. But do you guys ever thought, why these bad things embedded in me? Have you guys ever tried to figure out. Nope. You guys never did.

No big deal. As you guys are element of our society, it surely was my fault. My limitations, that i was failed to cope up with our so called modern society. I can't complain you guys. I never tried to do. Only thing i tried to do is make people understand myself. I failed on that too. Am i a looser? Perhaps not. Whatever i did in my life from heart, i proved myself best on that. So, how can i be  a looser? That' outta question. Actually, no one will understand me if they don't come closer to me. Nor shall i. I spent almost all night thinking of myself. I judge myself, my work. And finally i can figure out a conclusion. That sounds weird to you guys, right? Ha ha ha. Let me advise you something. Manage half an hour of a day for your own, during that time you'll think of yourself. What you did, what you do and what will you do. Judge them all. You'll be able to see the demon in you. How that demons crawls up in your mind. If you can identify it, you certainly can figure out the solution.

Well, it's five 55 of afternoon.i shall go now. I'm seriously in need of a cup of tea. The worst tea i ever can have in my life. undoubtedly this tea belongs to either Bablu or Moin. Both of them sucks. Okay Guys. See you later then. Bye.