Pain

6:44pm.




Bablur dokane boshe achi. Ektu age ektu emotional hoye gechilam. Exam bishoyok. Onekei betray kore vebe mota kharap hoye gelo. Rejaul sir er eta kora thik hoyni. Khabir amr political enemy. Se amk fail korate chaite pare. But rejaul manlo kivabe? Amk ato kisu boleo. Odvut manusher chorittro.

>Rafiq ashbe na? Atokhone to asha uchit. Mindta pura black. Kichu nai.

>Chot choto kichu fun korchi polapan er sathe. Abar nistobdhota. Hashte mon hoy amr onk kosto hoy. Ashete chay na.

>Afc'r mehedi vai gelo matro. Bidae diye room a ashlam. Mehedi vai amk phone diyechilo, dhorte icche korchilo na. Takiye dekhi uni gate er shamne. Giye recieve korlam. Canteen a boshe puri cha khawalam. Elcetion niye busy. Vablam robi k o daki. Daklam, mehedi vai tar vaiyer election er jonno doa chaye. Doa, mane amrs. Unar sathe amr ato valo relation na j takey ami arms dibo. Abar cheye boshchen, na o korte pari nai. Nah! Chorom pain a porlam to. Onar sathe amrs len den kora thik hobe kina bujhtesina. Bidae deyar shomoy mithu phone diyechilo. Ora ashche amr room a. On the way. Tai room a chole elam. Amr chorom matha r cokh betha korche. Moov diyechi. Now mobile creen a takiye thakte parchina.

>Er kichukkhon por ora sobai ashlo, mithu, anis, emon, rocky, bappy, uzzol. Adda holo onekkhon. Edikey farhan r mirza phone diye ekta pt. er kotha bollo, simple jinis but police case er jonno ektu help. Korlam tarpor mithu bike a kore amk namiye diye gelo.

>Oshojjho pain lagtese. Life er proty chorom birokto. Ato jhamela dae ken allah amre. Ki j korbo bal moira jaite mon chae. Matha theke ek pain jaite na jaitei r ekta aisha hazir. Maiya jat ta e bal foul. I hate girls. Premik vaiba boisha thake bal. Kaore proshroy deya asolei kharap. Ami bachina na bal amr jalae tar upor theika abar bonus.  Dhat.

>Phone use korai bad diye dibo chinta kortesi. Ai phone e amr life ta khailo.

>Amr matha pura awlaye jacche. Ki korbo ki korbo na. Aj ato gulo problem ek sathe ken? Ato chinta korte parchi na. Ami shanti chai, ektu shanti. Hey khoda, give me serenity. Amr obostha hoise oi wallpaper tar moto. Wallpaper tae lekha, "Nobody dies virgin, At last life fuck us all" And that's waht i'm suffering from


11:00pm

Perfect 11 ta baje. Cha gorom korlam. Cha khai. Ekhon o vat khainai. Rat a na kheye ami thakte parina. Tai onicchasorte o khete hobe. Baje ekta din gelo. Ajkal odvut kichu shopno dekhi, kolpona kori. Judder film gulo kichu kichu part murder er scene r Shap. Bujhi na meaning ki.
>Shap dekhar ortho amr onk shotru. Onek shap dekhar mane onk shotru. In  my dream they comes like they are striking me. Well, no wonder of it.
>R murder gulor scene? Am ager ekta belive chilo amr normal death hobe na. Most probably homicide. Suicide o hote pare. Onk ager chinta ata. Manuh ja niye vabe segulo shopne dekhe. Ami judder film bar bar dekhtesi tai hoyoto segulo kolpona kori. But shap ki ortho bohon kore. Ani jeta vabchi setai ki?
>Vabsilam choyon asche, asole ashche robi. 17th batch. O amr bashay kichu amm pathaise, seta j dhaka pouche geche janate asche. But ami agei jani. Basha theke phone diyechilo. Okey bola uchit chilo amr. Kintu aj ato fapor a asi j janate monei chilona. Chupchap room a boshe achi. Keyboard payer upor rekhe type korchi.
>Amr blog a sobkichu likhchi er karon holo jodi beche thaki tahole 10 years pore jokhon ai post gulo porbo tokhon amr sob kichu mone porbe. Din gulo feel korte parbo. Mane akhonkar kosto gula feel korar future er raw materials jogan dibe ai blog gulo.
>Aj fmc true voice er status dekhe mejaj kharap hoye geche. Okay ber korte parle sarajibon jalabo. Ekta comment korsi or status a, Wait net connect kore ota copy kori.
>Net er j obostha. gp net biroktikor. Ashche page. Current gelo. Biroktikor. Jai hok, rege giye comment korechilam ata,
>Jui ato honest er vab dekhas aj tor honesty prove korar shomoy asche... Tor sondehe campus a amr tandob lila cholbe... Koto polapan j mair khabe, you can't imagine... atoi jokhon honest you show off yourself, tmr oporadhe onno ra mar khabe ata sotota na nischoy. R ami ato sot na vaia. Tai polapan der marte amr etotuku kharap lagbe na. Tmi chattroo league niye kotha bolteso, either you are too brave or too fool...
>Mejaj kharap lage chattro league niye baje kotha bolle. Onek kosto kore chattro league k da koriyechi. Sob kichi sacrifice korsi, tar binimoye ai bonchonagulo? Pathetic. Amr rokto pani kora politics. Ai political empire er protita bindu amr nijer hat a kora. Rajnity anar pichone oneker vumika ache. But rajnity dar korate karo vumika nei. Shudhue amr abong amr sathe jara porobortite jukto hoyeche tader. Oboshsho tader r kono way o chilo na amr kothar baire jabar. Ami jevabe bolsi sevabe korate aj rajnity atota stable j sobai chinta kore medical niye. Atai amr shopno chilo.
>R ai bara vat a chai dite chay koyekta fake id? No way. Kal theke jakey shondeho hobe takey marbo. dekhi ki sotota ache or. Mitthe onuman niye status deya honesty na. Bunch of dumb-shits.  Current asholo now.
>Gan hocche ekta. Refugee film er. Hindi gan.
>Choyon vat khaiye dite ashche.
>Aj bikele facebook a ekta status diyechi, "It doesn't worth when there's no one to see. Asolei, kothata sotto. Status ta diychilam shohel k kendro kore. O rastar opare chilo. Amk deke suicide korar vab kortesi, mane ekta garir upor laf dibe kina. Tokhon okey ai kothata bolsilam. Suppose o kono meyer jonno suicide ta korloi. Keu dekhlo na, janlo o na. Meye tar kache ata ojanai theke jabe, se kichu feel o korbe na or jono. R se dekhle obosshoi kichu feel korto. Tai kothata bolsilam.
>R ekta bepar jemon, Ami ai j kosto pacchi keu dekhtese na, jantese. So, ete ki karo kichu jae ase? Jara jane tara obosshoi amr kosto ta feel kore. Temni cupid janleo joyto ektu holeo vabto. Etai neam korsilam.
>Odvut odvut chinta ashe mathae. Ami mone hoy pagol hoye jacchi. Onno kono jogote chole jacchi. Sekhan theke ki ferar kono potha ache? Naki no way out? Janina. hoyto nai. Mrittu e ek matro way. Jibone mokkhom shomoy par kore diyechi. Now,I'm on my track. Hindi ekta movie te erokom ekta dialogue ase. Vastv a. Track, patri. Rail gari jemon rashtay cholte pare na. Bus jemon hawae cholte pare na, aeroplane jemon rail-line a cholte parena, temni amio ai track er baire hoyto konodin ber hote parbona.
>Shomaj, poribesh manush er life a chorom ekta impact fele. Ai campus amk aste aste mastan kore dilo. Showrav, jony er jonno kichuta holeo involved. Keu kisu bollei, Shipon, omuk re maira dao. Amr o matha gorom chilo age. Raiga giya senior der o jhari mere ditam. Aste aste ami mastan.
>Kintu sotti bolsi, ami mastan kokhonoi chilam na. Rajnityr khatire jotota kora lagto kortam.
>R bole ki hobe, ja janar ta to sobai janei, ami neta, mastan, kharap, addicted. Ha ha ha. Kotogula adjective amr.
>R vat khabona. Valo lagtese na. Choyon kisu din jabot dayitto niye amk khaiye dicche. Tai amr ektu time kore khawa hcche.
>Choyon k ami onk boki, but amr cheye beshi okey niye keu chinta o kore na. Even or friend shandhi o hoyto na. Jodi pari kisu korte okey lavoban korbo.
>Chadsi faris ganta shunsi. Valo gan. Onek srity bijorito. Medusa ai ganta geye amr moble a mms pathaisilo. Or ashol name likhsilam. Vablam asol name lekha thik hobe na tai change kore medusa likhlam. Or ekta id ai name a chilo. Caput Medusa. Medical term. Medusa chilo amr ek matro true love. Er age love jinish ta amr jonno game chilo. Khela. Kheltam. Onk meyer sathe ai game khelsi. Ader moddhe onekei amk body offer korsilo, tar por e relation cut up. Body share amr pokkhe possible na. Ami parbona. Aurchi to pura desperate chilo sex er jonno. But sex er proti amr konoi moho ba akorshon nai. Friend ra fazlamu kore onk shomoy bole amk, dude, don't you have a dick? Kisu bolar nai amr. Ami parina. Hoyna. But in the end sei love e amr life ta sesh kore dilo. Prothome amk neshar jogote chure fele dilo. R akhon? Damn life. Fuck you life!
>Beche thakar meaning khuje paina ami. Keno ato kosto shojjho kore beche thakte hobe? Age jokhon suicidal attempt niyechilam jokhon success hole aj amr ato kosto pete hoto na. Hoyto keu mone o rakhto na ai amk. But akhon more geleo mone rakhbe. Pura fmc kadbe hoyot. Tito sir kadbe.


12:28am.

Bristy hocche. Shundor waether.  Amr kono kichutei shanti nai. Sobai khali pain dae. Pain Pain r pain. Ami exhausted.  Jai, ektu juddho dekhe ghumanor try kori. Bye.
>Dhat! Net connection pacche na. Ekdom slow. Page e load hocche na. Page load hole ata publish korei shuye porbo.

Kolpona

11:51pm

Ekta gan k crop kore ringtone banalam. Ekhon koyekdin aita rintone hishebe use korbo. Ganta holo Krishno kolir. Valoi ganta tittle maybe bondhu amar. Ami ubuntu os use kori. Crop er application nai. tai rds er pc theke crop kore anlam.

Bondhu amr mon valo nei, tmr mon ki valo?
Bondhu esho shopno aki charta deyal jure, bondhu esho akash dekhi purota cokh khule, bondhu esho jole vashi buk vashanor shukhe. Bondhu tmr bondhu ami, bondhu mora kojon, tobuo bondhu vashi na ko, aki nako shopon.

Gantar lyrics ta valo laglo.

12:22am.

Aj valo lagche na. Tai akhon shuye porsi. Balish er pashe, 2 ta cigarette er packet. Ekta khali, r ekta te 2 ta cigarette ache, ekta matchbox, bottle a kore cha, move, r mobile. R kichu ai shomoy proyojon hoyna. R agulo protidin e thake. Khater pashe ek bottle pani. Table fan r ekta ash tray. Jodio ota use kora hobe na. Cigarette er khali packet ta ash tray hishebe use hobe. Table a r ekta packet ache. Ota te mone hoy 5 ta cigarette ache.

Mathae khub tikkhno ekta betha onuvob korlam. Ekta wave er moto. Akhon nai. Mp3 te gan cholche. Shunchi r cupid er kotha mone korchi. Amk dekhle naki onekei shanti pae, but ami to kaoke dekhle shanti pai na. Jakey dekhle ektu pai, takey dekhina. Accha ami canteen a boshe thaki, er jonno ki junior meyera ki mone kore ami tanki mari? Vabte pare. Chelera nishchoi vabbe na. Ora amk chine valo korei. Ekta cigarette dhorai. Wait.
Cigarette dhorate giye dekhlam ekta chocolate o ache. Besh. Cha thanda hoye geche. Thanda cha e khelam. Cupid k niye r kichu likhbo na. Okey niye kichu likhle beshi mone porbe. Chinta hobe, r kosto pabo. Ki dorkar nijer upor ottachar korar. Blogger ba wordpress er cheye live journal a likhe moja. Vabnar rajpothe sobuz signal jele shongket dicche cupid k niye vabar. Accha o ki bujhe amr kosto? Ki kore bujhbe, o ki jane? Hoyto jane, jana uchit. Campus er r keu ki jane or kotha? Ami jader khub beshi believe kori tara jane, bakira hoyto guess kore. Andaje dhil marleo majhe majhe lege jae. Ami addae gele chupchap thaki dekhe sobai mone kore amr onk kosto, but keu janena kosto kisher. Janar chesta korse onekei, but bertho hoye hal chere dise. Oneker life a neshr jogot tai anondonogor. Ati kalponik ekta state. Jekhane jekono kichu niye govir vabe chinta kora jae. Shukkho nibir chinta. Garo ekta onuvuti. Ai anondonogor to khonosthayi. Nesha kete gelei abar sei ager pain. Tobe ekta shuvidha holo ager dine feel kora pain r mone thake na. Life theke ekta din missing hoye jae. Evabe onkgulo din e missing hoye jae. Tai koshter onuvuti gulo sritir pata theke muche jae.

Life ta k ogochalo vabe nosto kore dilam nijer hat a. Sob kichu ki abar guchiye ana jae na? Possible but difficult. Ager sei ami r ekhon kar ami r moddhe hazar gun difference. Rollback kora onk tough hobe. Onek tough.

Somen phone diyechilo matro. Room er light off dekhe mone korse ami hoyto baire. Tai phone dilo. Ask korlo, amr ki hoise, mon kharap naki, lonely thaki keno, oder k kisu share korina keno? Ato kichur kono jobab nai amr kase vai. Answer korar khomota o nai. Ai pain emon e ekta pain j share kora jabe na. O cupid k jane. But tobuo okey ami bolte parbo na j ami cupid k khub beshi miss kortesi. Ami ai type na sobai seta dharona kore. Valobasha amk kokhono durbol korte pareni. Sobai tai e vabe. Baire theke ami nijeke khub sokto ekta manush hishebe show kori. Kintu amr vetor ta j jole pure char khar hoye jacche kibave bujhabo koake, ki va bolbo? Ami ekta voboghure jhor hoye gechi. Free man. Kono pichutan nai.

Valobasha jinista amr kache totota soccho na, kichuta osposto. Tobuo kivbe ai valobashai amk makorshar jaler moto akkre dhoreche bujhtei parini. Amr cupid onk friend der sathe hashahashi kore jokhon kotha bole, ami opolok or dikey takiye roi. Tokhon amio onk manusher sathe thaki, tobuo eka hoye jai khub tokhon. Amr friend ra o onk golpo kore hashahashi kore. Kintu amr dristy, monojog sob ek jaegae sthobir hoye jae. Ami majhe majhe kolpona kori, ami ghumiye achi, ramr cupid amk amr room a dakte asche. Ghum hotat venge jae abong ekta dirghoshas ber hoye jae. Kosto hoy khub. Majhe majhe kolpona kori ami ghumiye achi r cupid amr mathe hat buliye dicche r ghum theke dakche. Abar majhe majhe kolpona kori ami r cupid bowl dance korchi. Emon o kolpona kori majhe majhe j amr cupid amr kole matha rekhe shuye ache r ami or chul niye khela korchi. Kolpona jokhon kete jae tokhon sara jibon er jonno kolponar jogotei thakte icche kore. Isshor amk sei khomota dae ni.
Warfaze er obak valobasha ganer ekta line a bolse, sob bedona muche jak sthirotae, hridoy vore jak ostitter anonde.
Kono ostitto e to nai amr. Ami kivabe, kiser shantonae bedona gulo vulbo? She took my heart i think she took may soul. Soul, atta, ostitto.
Buker vitor ekta chapa kosto onuvuto hocche. Mone hoy senseless hoye jabo. R ekta cigarette jalai.

Aj 20th batch er ekta meye canteen a amon vabe amr dikey takalo j ami lojjae onnk dikey takiyechi. Or takanota orthoboho. Ki hote pare seta?
1. Ami canteen a asha takey lucchami mone korse. Jodi ata mone kore, seta hobe chorom vul.
2. Ai sei shipon vai. Hmm, ata vabte pare. 20th batch amr name shunse bivinnovabe. Tachara FB te fake id gula amk totha amr chattro league k niye ja shuru korse, tatey erokom vaba oshavabik na.
3. Ai sei shipon vai. In negative sense. Fake id gular kotha biswas korle.
Othoba, 4. Ai vaia ta emon keno? Different. Atao vabte pare.
Asole amr tokhon canteen a jao ta thik hoyni. Kintu situation ta jeno kemon hoye gelo. Bablur dokan er shamne theke cigarette neyer shomoy vitore oder k dekhsi. Ora hoyto vabte pare, oder dekhe ami canteen a gesi. But asole to ami canteen a mosharrof er jonno wait korar jonno gesi. Shuvo dadar okhane jete cheyechilam. Tobe eshob bepar amr kemon jeno lage. Keu negatively nicche kina chinta hoy majhe majhe. Meyeder piche ami ghuri na eta sobai jane. 20th batch notun, tobuo kichuta holeo to jane. Jai hok. Ja vabar vabuk. Amr kichu jae ashe na. Ektu ghumanor chesta kori ekhon. Bye. Good night cupid. I love you.

3:50pm.


Ektu age choyon vat khaiye dilo. Aj naki pura vat sesh korchi. Emnite ordek kheye rekhe dei. Amake naki keu ek jon dayitto niye khaiye dae tahole amr naki shastho valo hobe choyon er mote. Aj sokale ghum theke uthsi. Prothome utthte icche korchilo na. Tobuo jor kore uthlam abong ward a gelam. J kj a giyechi se kaj hoyni, borong obs er biroktikor class sompurnota korte hoyeche. Class a boshe mobile a ekta note likhsilam. Seta chilo,


12:11am.

Obstetrics class a. Mahabuba madam class nicche. Amr mone hoy, kono sobvo jati gynae obs porte pare na. Ato baje examination gula. Yak. Faisal ekta examination amk dekhalo, yak. Faltu. 


Asolei baje ekta subject. Tarpor class kore ektu harukandi gelam. Mona name er ek friend juice khawalo. Sei auto te korei college a chole ashlam. Oi khane ekta bash bagan a dariye chilam kichukkhon. Tokhon ekta facebook status update kori. Funny update. lol

Gan shuntesi. Closer by Kings Of Leon er. Awesome ganta. Bishesh kore koyekta line. Jemon, She took my heart i think she took my soul. Jotil ekta line. Cupid o amr heart ta niye jae nai. Niye geche amr soul. Ami tai ekhon mrito prae. Age onk moja kortam, akhon r pari na. Hoy na.

Happy friday.

8:28 pm.




Location shack. Here i am. Doing something, forget it. I can't say. Sob shomoy sotto bola thik na. Khoti hoy. Mithha bolte chaina. Boli o na. But kotha ta kono manush shunle bolbe atai to boro mittha kotha. Ha, amio mittha boli, but mostly involves politics. Simple lie. Some short of convincing. To make people believe something which isn't real. Ami ja janate chai, boro boro neta ra setai janbe. Beparta erokom. Eta asole mittha na. Acting. Acting like i'm your friend which is not. Drama. So, etake k kittha bols chole?  Jai hok, that's upon you guys. Jai hok, ami mittha bolte chai na. R jekhane sotto bola problem, sekhane sotto ta skip kore jaoai better. 2 ta friend cheka khaise. Agulo niye golpo hocche. Sobai e fun kortese. Even tarao. Valo lage na aisob prem er golpo.

Gorom lagtese. Accha prem er golpo gula ki mostly sex involved? Sex and love. Expression of love is sex. Funny. Akhon erokom e hoye geche. Love er expression onek ase. 2 jon 2 jon k alingon korai valobashar bohipreokas na. Tobe sex valobasha sristy korte pare mone hoy. Tanahole arranged marriage chele meye keu kaoke chine na dekhe nai, tader moddho valobasha hoy kemne? Bashor rat a body share kore valobashe. Sei love srstikorta prodotto. Eternal. Love, huh? Piece of shit.
Buk joltese. Pani khawa dorkar. But pani nai.



9:34pm

Now i came back to my room. Readying my internet connection. Above mentioned story was written via mobile.


10:25pm.

Room a choto vai ra chilo tai kichu likhte parini. Choyon boshe chilo khaiye deyar jonno. Aj kal vat nijer hat a khete o alshemi lage. Pore khabo bole okey chole jete bollam. Khathal khelam. Jatio fol. Palash diye gelo. Valo chilo kathal ta. Choyon amr jonno cha r cigarette niye ashche. Bottle a kore cha.Flux o ache amr kache. But bottle a beshi valo. Ki bolbo r. Valo lage na kichu. Sob kichu kemon jeno panse, biroktikor. Sudhu pain r pain. facebook er ekta page er moto bolte hoy. Jibon ta ekta bash bagan, khali bash r bash. ha ha ha. Sudhu pain r pain. Ubuntur er buit-in messenger opren kora ache. Keu online ba offline holei ek rokom sound kore. Gan chara dorkar, tahole ai sound ta shona jabe na. Lelin aj kichu hindi robindro song diye geche. Se gulo play korlam. Dekhi kemon lage. Hindi gan ami temon ekta shunina. Hindi gan keno shunbo? English internation language hishabe shona jae, hindi kono porjaye pore na. R bangla song to obboshoi shona uchit. Valoi to lagtese ai ganta. But bujhtesina ki boltese. Hindi totota valo bujhina. Pasher room a fahim r jamil thake. Oder final prof exam. Beshi jore sound deya thik hobe na. Disturb hoy hoyto, kisu bole na. Na bola tai savabik. Tobuo amr eta consider kora uchit. Kal ward a jabo. Jete hobe actually. Kaj ache.

Greek mythology amr koase mojar e lage. Zeus, god of heaven and tar weapon hocche thunderbolt, Poseidon, god of water, i mean sea. R Hades, god of underword. Mane hades holo shoytan. Clash of the titan film ta amr kase valo lage. Hades er dialogue gulo. You are specks of dust beneath our fingernails. You have insulted powers beyond your comprehension. What do you know of beauty, what is more beautiful than death. Only her blood will sate the kraken and Zeus who you have so offended. Choose your penance, destruction or sacrifice. Kothin lage dialogue gula.


11:12

Choyon amk khaiye dite asche. Vat khabo. Mangsho gorom kortesi. Akhi name er ekta meyer sathe chatting kortesi facebook a. Koto kal knock korsilo but kheyal kori nai. Tai aj nije knock korlam. Prothome chinlo na. Name naki show kortese na. Number show kortese ID r. Obak lagtesilo. Getting notification about who's online who's offline. Atar sound ta bondho kora dorkar. Jak off korsi. Birokto lagchilo sound gulo. Khawa sesh. R khete icche korche na.

11:48pm.

Johanna kisu song tittle fb inbox send korsilo. Gan gulo download kora hoyni. Akhon kortesi. Dekhi gan gulo kemon. Aj ekdom e valo lagche na. Taratari ghumiye porbo. Shuye probo actually. Ghum ashbe kina janina. Diner bela khub valo ghum hocche. But rat a hocche na. Sobai jar jar kaj a besto. Amr e kono kaj nei. Sarata poth jure ami eka, hete jai akash nodir pane cheye. Nil jochonae, sritir o vire, hariye jae mon adhare. Rate adhare. Keu bojhe na amr kosto, bujhte chesta o korena. Asolei sobar e kosto ache. Karo kosto keu bojhe na. But sobai e chay tar kosto ta ekjon ontoto bujhuk. Boyfriend or Girlfriend. Tobe bf/gf thakle problem holo, shadhinota thake na. Kichuta holeo khorbo hoy. Ekta common complain ase sob gf der, j tar bf takey shomoy dae na. R bf er complain, saradin shomoy chay, aita ki possible. Ha ha ha. Ata khub common. Meyera beshi dependent hoye jae bf er proti. Atar upokar o ase, opokar o ase. Dependency ta barle shomoy chawa bare jeta ek shomoy cheleder kase pain hoye jae. Break up er shomvobona thake. Premer sobcheye boro advantage holo, ata ekta dayittobodh creat kore manusher majhe. Ata future a khub helpfull hoy.


Amr sound system ta ami nije thik korsi, 2 ta k ekta korsi. Ekhon sound onek  valo hoy. Quality o valo.


Aj onek din por ek friend er sathe dekha holo. Akran. Chattro dol er vice president. Amk dekhe or ektai dukkho amr chehara naki nosto hoye geche. Chehara dhuye ki pani khabo? Foul. Or mathae awl foul buddhi beshi. Beshi political. Amr sathe ekta jhamelao hoisilo or sathe ekbar. Aita niye pore friend ra boshe bichar achar hoise. Then it was finished.


12:14am

Linux chat box open ache. Facebook contacts. Jara ache tader sathe chat korte icche kortese na. Akhi knock korlo. ID ta ki, ashay vora akhi. Ahare bechari. Koto asha j tar cokhe.
Kal abar milad ase rubinar. Organized by Medicine Club. Ai club ta ekta jotil jinis. Campus sob potential chelepele ai club korse but jar mon maboshikota valo tara porobortite ai club chere dise.
 Fajlamu korar mood a asi. Chatting a faizlamu kortesi.
nah aj kichu valo lagche na. Jai shuye thaki, Bye. Well, it was our so called happy friday. Keu bujhbe na atar mane. Lol.

God and his will.

6:29pm.

Room a boshe achi. Totally boring lagche. Bujhtesina. Kothao giye moja pacchi na. Anondonogor kothae? Koto dur? Naki eta shudhue morichika. Shuye achi. Ektu age canteen a gelam, sekhaneo valo laglo na. Tai room a back korlam. Ekhaneo valo lagche na. Dekhi mithu k phone dei. Ashbe o or bike niye. CDI 100 cc. High class bike na. But engine valo cdi er. Or bike a chore ektu ghurbo kichukkhon. Dekhi valo lage kina. Mithu amr close friend der moddhe ekjon. But majhe majhe or attitude kemon jeno lage. 1st year a mithu der sathe porichoy. Tokhon 250 bed a adda martam beshi. Onek din sei adda hoyna. Juice khaisi aj. Tai mone hoy arokom lagtese. Ekta cigarette khawa dorkar. But room a ki ache? Dekhi check kore. Hm, paisi. Matro 1 ta ase. Amr life ta emon holo keno? Ami emon life chaini kokhono. Odvut. Sristikorta khub odvut. Nah, hoyto amrai odvut. Jemon pai temonti chaina.

Some say, our fate is written on us. So, why should we'll be punished after death? That was our fate what we've done in this world. If god controls everything, he controls our life and what we are doing in our lifetime. Ain't that our fault, yet we will be punished as they say. But god provoke us to do something in this world. If it is bad or good. We don't have any choice as they say. That's not fair. Anyways, i'm not questioning gods. But i'm trying to figure out something. What we've been smoking out here in this world? Or maybe god has the power to give up birth on our mothers womb and then take us out to heaven or hell. Will is ours. He has only given us the power of our will. And our fate depends on it. That is what i meant to say or prove. Sometimes when i watch over some movies of war, so often one question came to my mind, it god is satisfied with this massive murder, he is not god at all. Those warrior used to say that they are fighting for god. And that is god's will. If killing is god's will howcome you should pray to a killer? If mother teresha can't go to heaven according to our religion howcome we can go there? She wasn't muslim and they say, none but muslim will get heaven today or tomorrow. She wasn't took birth from a muslim family, that ain't her fault. Well, people might say, she should've change her religion and become a muslim. Who on earth with change their family religion? Any muslim won't do that, why she would do? And that is the another thing which is not fair. Giving an advantage to some people by giving them birth from a muslim family. Surely it isn't fair. Why don't hindu or cristian people deserve this advantage? If you wasn't muslim what will you do then? Pray your own god without questioning. Other peoples ar doing the same. You can't blame them. Why should they get punishment from gods as it was god's will? Or god has done that. I'm sick of it.

Night with some fun

12:48 am




Hey guys? I've spent a weird day after all. I wake up 3:30pm last day. Spent the day doing nothing. Well, it's really weird for me. I usually want to stay busy all the day. But now these days i don't know what happened to me. I've become something i never wanted. But what for? Complicated.


Now i have my facebook page open on my laptop and chatting with friends. Rakhee, my batch-mate and Johanna, my friend from Finland. She's a good friend of mine. I can share anything with her. She gave me much of her time when i was so alone. I used make fun with her. I always do, try to make her laugh and she loves it. Now i' trying to make her monkey and she is trying to prove me a BUG!!! A bug? Do you people think i'm like a bug? Not at all. lol

Well, we both are having much fun. As we always have. But at the middle of the time i wasn't able to contact with her as i disconnected my internet connection and was so busy with political works.

Ow, it's so incredible. I'm chatting with them and typing this post. Seems so fast though. Rakhe is talking about class and johanna still trying to prove me a BUG! She lost like she always do :P She went to offline. And akhi knocked me.

Ow, good heaves. Life is so beautiful. Here i am, chatting with my friends, listening music, having tea and smoking. Johanna came back online and doing the same thing again. It's great to argue with her.


Now rakhe and me is talking about our old days. Changes. She reminded me my old dialogue, "tension nis na, realax!" This one i used on my stage performance. It was a stage drama. I acted on few stage dramas. And ofcourse those were great. I can't perform now though if i wanted to. Cause we are most seniors now. It will be ridiculous. No one will want theirselves to look ridiculous. My 1st stage performance was in a drama named Birth Fantasy and i was a thug. Cool one you know. I was aggressive on it. Pretty cool. My costume was perfect. And that act made me much popular to our teachers. They liked my act.


Cupid always was so reserve. She barely talks with anyone. But i talked with her few days. But i made a mistake, then she took off. Horrible mistake. If i had a reset button. *deep sigh* I am flipping out. I want to take my mind off her. At any cost. Damn you mind. Why don't you listen to me?

Well, i need to do something else to take my mind off her. What can i do? Umm, thinking. What if i go outside and have a walk alone? Well, not a good idea. It will be worst possible idea ever. If i walk alone i must think of something, and that will bring her on my mind for sure. Well, lets go to someone's room. Maybe be at mosharrof's room. That's it. Done. But he is sleeping.

2:00am

It's midnight. Rakhe went off just now as her mobile battery is dying. But johanna is till here and our argument is never gonna end. lol. We both enjoy this. Yada yada yada. Well, now i ended up our chatting. We had enough fun for tonight. I'm gonna go now. Bye guys! Wish me tight sleep and a sweet dream. Thank you!

12:21pm

Hey guys! Here i'm back with some new experience indeed. Today i first chatted with our principle on facebook. It didn't ended well as we all know Facebook chat sucks. I greet him and he replied, 'Porte bosho, shamne exam. What else i can expect from him besides pretending me to study. He cares about me a lot. And loves me as his own son. I'm the man with luck. Wherever i go i can win over some mindless dregs, where as they start to love me. And here at FMC, why should it be different?

Yesterday

Sir :) salam

23:41

Porte bosho

Shamne exam

G sit, matro 10 min net a thakbo

Tito is offline. Your messages will be sent to his inbox.

Well, here is the chat we had.

I'm really pissed of by this grammen phone internet service. It is poor enough to make you believe this is bangladesh and nothing works here as we people want. Again, no big deal. lol. I gonna switch my internet connection into broadband. That is not good either but apparently better for here. 256kbps speed, that must be sucks for any other country but here we hardly can imagine this. How sad is that?

Today i slept at daytime. I was suppose not to do that. I broke my rule. Well, i don't mind. Rules are made to broke. I surely enjoyed it. I also haven't done some other things today. But i was supposed to do those. Anyways, maybe i wanted to have a change.


2:27am.

Well, it's too late now. I wasn't in mood to type something and publish that on my blogs. One thing i noticed lately, i didn't had my bath for 2 days. I totally can't get it how i forgot. So, i had my bath just earlier. On my way back from bathroom i saw showrav having times with mosharrof. Showrav, wicked guy! Trying to do something i guess. Maybe he is interested with politics again. Will he start it again? Ofcourse, and who said he has gone out of politics? He never gave up. He declared that cause he failed to do anything as he never was able to do anything. Nothing but a loser he is. Well, if he starts it again, it won't be a problem for me but for few other people from whom he will get support and put their backs upon me. It means he's gonna ruin the peace of this campus and surely i won't spare him this time. I'll just knock his heads off. Not with my own hand actually, some juniors gonna do that for me. As i took the highest risk for my politics i won't let anyone come beside me, but as my fellow, my descendant. He never gonna be my fellow. He has his own pride which ruined him. He thinks that he is very heroic leader. Seems funny though. Cause to be a heroic leader one must have certain qualities which is absent in him. He is nothing but a jar-head dropout. A dope. He never thought of anyone beside himself and jony. But jony never thought of him. He is the most selfish person i've ever seen. That's an impressive bounty for showrav though.

Showrav always used to say about ethics. That's really funny for me. Where his ethics was when he gave up politics leaving his fellows? If i didn't accept those mindless dregs, and gave 'em my support what the heck on earth will happen to them? They are now controlling this college and everything. They can't imagine how worst life awaits them then. But with my and my friends support they were able to recover. What showrav has done for them? We were the same them. Me and showrav. He took his support from that fat guy, Jony and from few doctors. And me, only from my friends. There was no such doctors support me rather they wants me to be terminated. But still i won. Actually honesty, truth and bravery always win. I was honest with my words. I don't believe few rumors can be enough  for terminate one. Well, showrav did used some rumors and some false blame on me. To tito sir and everyone. But now when they come to know the truth they hate him. Tito sir knows the truth from the beginning and hates him from then though. Others, after they took the control of fmc. Now showrav again trying to win over those mindless dregs again for work with him. It won't work. But if t works, they will be the greatest betrayer of fmc. And i'll curse on them. I'll take revenge for the betrayal, and that will be a lifetime gig. I've done so hard work for this politics and ofcourse it has it's price. I won't let them take my glory.

Well, he fought for power and i fought for honor. God has chosen me to glorify. Let that happen again. Let him fight for power again and let me fight for honor. Let the god decide which man to glorify again.

3:13am

 I wish if i could have cupid by my side. I would have give up everything for her. Daydreaming, eh? That's never gonna happen. Neither she will come by my side nor i can give up everything now. I've come far away from my life. Nothings gonna change now. So, i have to get my mind off her. Well, better i go to sleep now. Bye now.

10:06 pm.

Hey there. Now i'm at my room. Watching a weird movie named Priest. It is almost the ending. So obviously we are gonna enjoy some action. So be it now. That was huge blast. Awesome. Now they are gonna meet each other, cause it is last scene. Lol. Finish. So, it wasn't a diversity thing.

Ow great. It was on load shedding. Awesome, that i finished up the film with IPS. Now, lights are out, fan also. Darkness, song and hot weather. What a gift of the day. I think, i should finish up my dinner right away. But you know i've become a little bit lazy these day. Eating is a process, i hate most. Ow well, choyon's gonna help me out with this sort of work. He will feed me dinner. I'll just lie down on my chair, and swallow.
Load shedding is over. Tunred on my laptop again. What will i enjoy now? Something i've seen before.

1:09 am

Well, now i'm lying on my bed. I gonna try to sleep early. I badly need this actually. I had a day of shit today. Listening musics now. It's been playing on my mp3 player. Change in song selections. Al are bangla and belongs to artcell, aurthohin and shironamhin. That sounds great, isn't it? Not feeling welL to type anything. I'm gonna go. Bye. Good night to you all, and good night kiss on the forehead of my cupid. Love you. Bye.

Fight

5:09pm.



Hey guys. In case you have noticed i didn't slept last night, so im tired. But, not sleepy yet. I need medication badly. Maybe i've got some psychiatric problem, nor maybe not. At 10 of morning i was supposed to sleep for a while but my friend came to visit me, and we had something to eat. Well, hope you guys have enough brain to got it. Then i was sitting at canteen like usual. Had couple of cups of tea and few sticks of cigarette. Then i brought back myself to my room and started facebooking. I also checked my MySpace account after few long months. They've upgraded their features. Now it looks much better.



In the meantime i was enjoying the movie Troy. This is awesome. Specially the dialogues of Achilles. Achilles, a great warrior. But what were they fighting for? Well, Paris fought for Love, Hector fought for his Land, Agamemnon fought for Power, Menelaus  fought for honour and it was Achilles, who fought for glory.

Everyone of them had a reason to fight. But what I'm fighting for? Land? That is not in trouble apparently. Love? I don't have anyone to love or loves me back. Power? It never worth's this fighting. I had power before and i will have. Then was it honour? People honoured me when i took my first step into this campus. So, maybe it is for glory. Maybe i'm fighting for glories sake. Yes, it is glory. I want these guys of fmc will remember name when i leave this college. My buddies will carry on my name.

In my 1st year of this campus these college crews used to tell me some stories of of elders. About their crazy works indeed. I've done far more than them. Why don't these guys will not remember my name. Ofcourse they will. They will tell my stories to our descendants. An they will theirs. This is how it will pass on. I was one of them who felt the politics between clubs are nasty, spoiled, cheap. Then we dreamt for the real politics. Bangladesh Student league. Well, in our country the idea of politics has been spoiled. Still i tried to be reasonable. I wanted all the students will live some happy life together. But all we know, if anyone wants to do something good, bad will stand up against it. And surely it has. People are talking about me, my bad habits. Well, as i'm a human, i might have something bad in me. But why do you good people will look upon the bad side. Why don't you guys see the good lies on every man. It says that, bad things stays at peoples back side, that's why they can't see their own bad. Certainly i fixed a mirror in me, which reflects my bad  upon my eys and i can see them. I know what's bad in me. But do you guys ever thought, why these bad things embedded in me? Have you guys ever tried to figure out. Nope. You guys never did.

No big deal. As you guys are element of our society, it surely was my fault. My limitations, that i was failed to cope up with our so called modern society. I can't complain you guys. I never tried to do. Only thing i tried to do is make people understand myself. I failed on that too. Am i a looser? Perhaps not. Whatever i did in my life from heart, i proved myself best on that. So, how can i be  a looser? That' outta question. Actually, no one will understand me if they don't come closer to me. Nor shall i. I spent almost all night thinking of myself. I judge myself, my work. And finally i can figure out a conclusion. That sounds weird to you guys, right? Ha ha ha. Let me advise you something. Manage half an hour of a day for your own, during that time you'll think of yourself. What you did, what you do and what will you do. Judge them all. You'll be able to see the demon in you. How that demons crawls up in your mind. If you can identify it, you certainly can figure out the solution.

Well, it's five 55 of afternoon.i shall go now. I'm seriously in need of a cup of tea. The worst tea i ever can have in my life. undoubtedly this tea belongs to either Bablu or Moin. Both of them sucks. Okay Guys. See you later then. Bye.

Mourning

10:55 pm


Hey guys! I'm back now. Time's 10:55 pm. Well, this day is not good for fmc. One of her student died. Another star has fallen from the sky. All other students are mourning for this death.

Onek khon kisu likhte parlam na. Majhe majhe kisu lekha possible hoyna. Aj dintai kharap. Sokale ghum theke uthe class a na giye abar ghumaisi. Goto rat a amr ghum hoyni. Dupureo ghumate parlam na. Oshojjho lagche. Meyeta alpo boyosh a mara gelo, unexpected.Accident, huh? Kokhon hoy kivabe hoy keu bolte pare na. Kal 19th batch er chele meyera janaza porte jabe. Aj e jete cheyechilo, but tito sir mana korse. Jodi abar kono accident hoy. Pore ora amk janalo kalam er maddhome. Sir k phone kore ask korlam bollo rat a pathayo na. Amio mana kore dilam. Sokal 5 tae jete bollam. Micro bus thik kore disi 2 ta.  Jabe mawa hoye. Ferry o DC k diye thik koriye rakhlam. 25 jon jabe. 5 jon meye jabe. Akhon porjonto atai jani. Tobe sobcheye annoying bepar holo, orna golae pechiye mara gelo kivabe? R atota careless kivabe holo meyeta? Ornae jodi shamlate na pare, tahole kivabe hobe. Bujhina. Onek meyekei dekhsi orna careless vabe golae jhuliye rakhe rickshaw te chorar shomoy. R ekta jinis dekhlam aj, facebook a showing tendency. Jemon kar age k status dite pare. Abar keu keu doa o kore facebook a. R keu keu doa korte bole sobai k. Ata thik ache. Sobai k bad news ta janiye doa korar jonno request kora ta better and logical but facebook a Allah r kase doa kora ta valo mone hoy na amr. Ata showing tendency mone hoy. Facebook a doa korle ki Allah dekhe, r mone mone jara doa kore tader ta dekhena? Ajob. Jai hok ata to mojar factor na. Jevabei koruk, doa korlei mone mon theke.


12:02am

Valo lagche na kisu. Puro college a shoker chaya. Kal college bondho kore dei. Hm, deya jae. College bondho kore shok dibos hishabe palon kora uchit.  Tobe ami ekta jinish bujhtesina, oi meye k ami chini na tobuo amr ato kharapn lagtese ken? Hoyto, mrittu tar sob bepar jantesi and mrittu k kendro kore kichu sohojogita o korsi bolei. Aj amr 01715 numberta arekta handset a use korsi, tito sir phone dise, amito r bujhi nai, oi set a save o kora chilo na. Ami ask kortesi, hello k? Sathe network o problem korlo valo kore shunte parchilam na. Sir khpe giye bollo, Shipon na tmi? Ami bollam ha apni k?  Sir bole ami doctor tito, ki number save nai? Pore bollam sorry sir onno set use kortesi to, tai. Meytar ki obostha jante chailo sir. Bollam, all hope has gone. But death declare kore nai.  Sir bollo, akhon amr ki kora uchit. Ami bollam, apni coelleg ekdin bondho kore shok dibos palon koriye denr pore ekta milad diye diben. Sir bollo, ha, to kal tomra koyekjon aso, kore dibo.

LiveJournal er password match korche na. Tai abar password change korlam. LiveJournal, Blogger r wordpress a amr blog. Amr blog a post korar ekta easy way ache. 3 ta blog er 3 ta mailbox ache, segulare post ta mail kore dilei publish hoye jae. Emailid verified kore eta korte hoise. Facebook akhon birokto lage. Tai blogging. R facebook a sob kichu lekha o jae na. Firefox er 3 ta tab a 3 ta blog open. Nah, close kore net disconnect kori. Ami akhono dinner kori nai. Khub khuda lagche. Jai kheye ashi.


12:50am

Dinner sesh korlam. Ami majhe majhe ekta jinish chinta kori. Seta holo amr arokom obstha hole ki holo? Teachers, students level a ki rokom impact porto? FMC te keu ki kosto peto? Keu keu hoyto kosto peto abar keu keu peto na. Max. kosto peto naki max peto na? Surely bolte partesina. Tobe amr ja mone hoy ta holo mrittur por villain o hero hoye jae amader somaj a. Jai hok, cha khete icche korchilo. Ek choto vai k diye yusuf er cha analam. Bottle a kore. Akhon gorom korchi. Kal 19th batch er oder sathe 18th batch koyekjon o jabe. Abong commillar chele hishabe 16th er mahfuz o jabe. Valo.
Bottle a kore cha khete valo e lage. Obvas ta beshi diner na. Tobe rat a cha khawar obvash onek ager. Akhon khub lazy hoye gechi. Tachara rat kore amr baire jaoa o akhon safe na. Zellar politics ektu gorom ekhon. Zellar president Monir vai k ami marsilam. Akhon protisodh nileo nite pare.
Idaning khub beshi olosh hoye gechi. Baire jeteo valo lagena. Saradin chair a boshe gan shuni r net surfing.
Valo lagche na now. Tobe valo na laga kichue na, sudhu matro ekta manoshik rog. Light niviye dite icche hocche but tohale type korte parbona. Dekhi kono buddhi kora jae kina. Ekta buddhi ashche. Light bondho kore table lamp on kore dilei to hoy. Tai korlam. Now valo lagtese.
Shironamhin er gan shuni. Train. Awesome ganta. I love it. Gantar summury holo, manush jane na jene shudhu shukher pichone chote, but sukh dhora dae na.  Asolei manush protiniyoto sukher piche chote but kothao sukh paena. Ami paina. Akhon Onek asha niye ganta shuntesi. Atao jotil gan. Onek shobuz er prante tmi thako ekaki. Ami dhushor dhushor hoye jege thaki. Ata mane hocche onek pranobonto manush er sathe thekeo tmi eka thako, tmr mone ami dhushor hoye shara dae. Dhushor bolte mlan hoye bujhiyeche. Puro gantar meaning obak kora shundor. Shironamhin er Zia vai ekta genius. gan gulo max. e tar lekha. Tar kolpona shokti ato prokhor. Icche ghuri ganta diye maybe bujhaise j life a tmr icche moto live korom but kichu onushashon mene icche moto jibon shajao. Agulo amr mone hoy. Amr view. R ekjon r ekrokom vabte pare. Tobe eka pakhi ganta niye ami jerokom kolpona korechilam music video tae se rokom e bujhiyeche. So, maybe tader thinking r amr thinking almost same. Bondho janala album er Eka ganta shunle amr khub loneliness feel hoy. Bhalobash megh ganta shunle Cupid k miss kori. Ki j obostha amr. Allah e janen. Rat a ghumnao to mone hoy vulei gechi. Ki j korbo bujhte parina. Bachte icche hoyna r. Ato problem, ato kosto. Jiboner proty maya chole geche.
R ekta jotil  jinish holo Artcell. Genius. Utshaber Utshahe gan ta shunchi now. Amr dharona cheka khawa manush der k nesha na kore notun vabe bachar ahoban janano hoyeche ganta te.
Cupid k onk din dekhina. Khub dekhte icche korche. But possible na. Or hashimakha ekta pic wallpaper a dilam. Dekhchi okey. Or hashi, opolok dristy. Sob miliye ekta angel from heaven. Or dan cokher niche ekta gol kalo spot ache. Halka kalo. Bojha jae na valo kore na dekhle. Ota onno okey maybe aro beshi shundor lage. Ata ekta pohela boishakh er pic. Shari pora. Kaner dul ta maybe matir. Mone hocche. Asb er bepar a idea nai amr. Chul gulo halka lalche lagche. khub silky o mone hocche. Ekbar o ekta chulniye jotno kore rekhe diyechilam. Ekta chul to, tai hariye felsi. Shamnashamni to kono din bolte parbona tai pic takey boli, I Love You Cupid. Love you so much. Ha ha ha. No reply.
Table a pa tule adho shoya hoye achi rocking chair a. Aram lagche.
Amader ovidhan a mitthe hoy onubad. Oboshad, ashroy khoje, manusher ondhokar ghore. Drutiman, drutirodh hoye anmone mene ney porajoy.
Utshober utshahe gantar ai line gulo jotil lage.

1:47am

Onek rat holo. Ekta film dekhi. Ager dekha kono film. favorite part gulo dekhi.


2:24am

300 movie ta joto dekhi totoi valo lage. How brave 300 warrior killed lacs of persian army. Now these days, no one will stand up against rivals for country where death is so certain. Salute to them and their honored death. I am free man like them. I have nothing to loose nothing to gain.

2:58am

Now i have to go. Feeling tired still not sleepy. Bye guys! And of course a good night kiss on the forehead of my Cupid. Bye.

I don't like study, perhaps no one likes. But my one is bit different. I just hate medical studies. It sucks. Here is medical everyone is like machine. It seems to me that medical colleges are farm house, where people turns up their-selves  into machine. Same routine everyday, no recreation, and no mercy. Well, one thing you might know that i'm insomniac. I enjoy the whole night all alone. That might seem weird. But yes i do. People used to call me crazy. Well, maybe I'm little bit of nuts. lol. Actually, i'm somehow addicted. Addicted to music, net and some drugs. Now im smoking, and listening music. Facebook page is open on my laptop. Now at facebook people are trying to find out how lucky they are, how sexy they are blah blah blah. This is really bullshit. An application can't measure these things. Maybe these guys also know this, they just try to satisfy their-selves cause it always give some positive result. LMAO! Everyone wants to hear something cool about them. That is human nature. None can complain it. I'm gonna light up one more cigarette. Hang on!

It is not a good weather after all. It was so good in last few days. It is rainy season. But the problem is, I don't like rain that much. I have allergy on it.

I have some friends online on facebook. But i don't wanna chat with them now. I can't find any topics to chat with them. How are you, what you are doing, these questions are lame i think. As you got me online you might know what i'm doing. Right? Sometime people from next knocks me on facebook, that is totally annoying. Another thing of facebook bothers me is, people used to complain about others. Like, only he/her is a good guys and all other is bad guy, selfish and so cheap minded. Weird.

It was fathers day last day. And everybody showed up their love for their father. Loving parents don't need any special day. Everyone loves them no matter what day it is or what their parents are either bad guy or not. Child is a gift of heaven handed to their parents. So they were bless by love. Of course they love each other. But if any exception found, don't count it on.
I don't know why i do have some different thought about almost everything. Am i different from other or more realistic than others? I don't know. People around me will judge me about this.
Well, it late. I'm gonna go. I have class at morning.

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10:56am

Doctors tea room a boshe achi. Block posting er moto baje jinish r nai. Emnite to to ward 11:30 porjonjonto hoto, ekhon unlimited time. Kokhono 12 ta, kokhono 1 ta. Boring. Jak, aj to tea room a boshe film dekhte partesi, Vastav. Jotil film, onekbar dekhsi. Valo lage. Realistic film. Sanjoy dutta boss actor. Amr favorite actor. Shuvo dadar jonno boshe achi. Joruri kaj ache onar sathe. Kaj ta hole khub valo hobe. Matha betha kortese ektu. Kal rat a ghum hoyni. 3 hours ghumaisi only. Dupure ghumate parbo kina shondeho. Dekha jak ki hoy.

10:33am.

What a day! Perfect day for sleeping as it has been raining since last night. Wet and cool weather. But, big ass day with ass shit luck. I was suppose to sleeping now but this class ruined the whole party. Actually it is not the class but some work at hospital. Work, something important.

Whatever, i'm on my class now. Gynae class. Mahbuba madam taking this class. What she's saying? I can't hear it the back bench. Yes, i'm a backbencher. A.P.J Abdul Kalam said, the greatest mind of a nation maybe found at the last benches of the classroom. Good call Mr. Kalam. You lifted my spirits up. Well, blogging is helping me out during classes. It is helping me to pass the time. I don't wanna waste my valuable time listening some yada yada stuff of our gynae teachers. They are all jerks. Mrs. Mahbuba is trying to entertain us with her shit ass jokes and students are pretending their selves to laugh. Lol. No big deal. I need a cup of tea and a cigarette right away. But that won't be possible for next couple of hours perhaps.

To whom i shall offer my gratitude for this glorious bounty? Deep sigh. Very deep sigh.

An wonderful evening.

8:02pm

Hey guys. Here i am again, time's 8 oh 2. Location padmar par. Manoshik vabe kichuta biddhosto. Tai padmae par a ghurte ashlam. Mojai lagtese. Huge batash. Seems like whirlwind. This is fucking awesome. Wave after wave is hitting this cement blocks. But everything is so dark. Few stars up above the sky. Dheu gulo eshe amr pa chuye jacche. Valo lagtese. Some other fallas came here too, but they are making noise. I need serenity here. For that why i came here. I want to feel the sound of this wave of padma. It's drizzling right away. It's weed what else i need. Uff! Sunny talks too much. No big deal. They are enjoying theirslves. Can't complain it. But the problem is, when i close my eyes i used to have a glimpse of cupid, my cupid. Ami ekta gan shuntesilam, bojhe na se bojhe na. Indian bagla song. Valo lage. Cause amr cupid o bojhe na how much i love her. She's makin me crazy. Lyrics of this song is crazy. Damn fucking awesome. Here it is,
Bojhe na se bojhe na. Seto ajo bojhena. Amr moner betha, prem ki sudhu betha. Uttor ajo mele na.
A buke ato prem tar cokhe ghrina, chayna shunte se a buker kanna. Ami cokher pani, ki kore takey boli, a buk a ki bedona.
Bojhe na se bojhe na, seto ajo bojhe na. Amr moner kotha, prem ki shudhu betha, uttor ajo melena.
Prithibi ek dikey, ek dikey ami. Aj amr rokte mishe gecho tumi, naiba holo dekha, dekhbo ami eka, shopner ai shimane.
Bojhe na se bojhe na, seto ajo bojhe na. Amr moner kotha, prem ki shudhu betha. Uttor ajo mele na.
Bojhena se bojhe na.

Kobe bujhbe amr cupid. Hoyto kono din o na. Onek khon por paye ekta dheu sporsho korlo. Ah, what a beauty of nature. Pa pani dubiye cement er block a boshe achi r gan shunchi... Lemme have sometime of my own.

Boshe boshe gan shuchi. Khub valo lagche. Thanks to kalam, sunny and mosharrof for their nice plan of coming here.

Ora hatte hatte shamne jacche. Amr ekhanei boshe thakte valo lagche. Onekta vije gechi dheu er panite. Tobuo valo lagche.

9:18pm

Still boshe achi. Pani bartese. Tai ektu uporer block a boschi. Pani ektu gorom lagtese. Maybe thanda batash a body temp. kome geche. Asolei ektu thanda thanda lagche. Amr sathe ekhon sunny boshe ache. O e bollo amk uporer block a boshte. Thanks to him for reminding me this. Ami onno-monosko chila. Panir level er dikey kheyal e chilona.

Akhon campus a back korChi. Vaggo valo auto peyechi. Koyek jon lok k kothao namiye amader niye jabe. Tai cha khete khete wait korchi auto tar jonn. Halka bristy hocche. Anyways, it was an wonderful evening, a memorable one. Thanks to my buddies for provoking me to come here.

1:16:42am

Hey guys! How's your days going on? Pretty cool like me huh? lol. Today, was total shit for me. Real deep shit. I wake up at almost nine 30 am went to class and was listening blah blah blah of shamsun nahar madam. Then went to P.W.D for some another shit, but it doesn't paid off. Then played football after ... um mm, i forgot when i played football last. Then with some friends, and after all these shit now i'm at my room. Rolling on chair and listening Always with you, with me instrumental by Joe Satriani. This one is of my favorite instrumental. Feeling a bit headache, as i was drenched. I told you guys i hate rain, told you on facebook actually. When i listen to this music, it seems i'm feeling it. It is playing on my heart. Such awesome thing it is. It was jamil's birthday. He gave me some chocolates and last night some sweet meat. I gave i him a pen brought by my brother from abroad. And some awesome song collection. He likes my collection. It was at afternoon after football. Actually i'm typing a mail and i will send it to my blog to publish. Cool. It is raining outside. I hate rain as i have allergy to this and another thing is dirty mud comes out on road. I was listening hindi songs after a long while. And put some line of a lyrics on my facebook status. Hindi song is not my type. So, it will seem funny though. Hindi song mostly indicates sex. A song translation is like this, Laila im laila, i'm that kind of laila with whom everyone wants to meet alone. What on earth will they do meeting her alone? Surely indicates sex. (To people from abroad, It is not our culture.) Forget it. I was watching movie just earlier, The Incredible at star movies channel. It is 2nd time for mine.

I was listening a hindi song called Yaro yehi dosti hain by Junun. Junun is pakistani band. This song is about Friends. The true friend you can have if you're fortunate. Well, i was fortunate enough and i am except at FMC. Seems it does look like different from elsewhere, Our FMC. Huh. Truly i have so many true friends who can die for me. Well, that sounds like little weird. No one in this world can sacrifice his/her life for other one. I was meant to say, they can risk their life for me. Like, if anyone kill me, they will take revenge no matter what happens. Another thing is, no one can hit me in presence of them, they'll protect me. That's why i told that. I had phone call right now, one of my local budd is seeking help from me. Good call at right time, when i'm planning to do that job myself. Ha ha.

2:23am

I had a phone call. In phone when it is a girl i talk more logical. Girls don't have sharp brain. In most cases they can't get me. Then i need to elaborate what i meant to say. She don't like smoking at all. That doesn't matter to me actually. But why do girls don't like smoking, i can't get that. Well, maybe they want to burn out a boy's life all alone. Lol. That was a good reason i've made. Lol. I think this girl would have a smoker as her husband. And another weird thing about this girl is, she gave me call. OMG! I never thought a girl can call a boy just to have chat instead of miss-call. Most of the girls are same. And about my cupid, she's just an angel in human form. If i can have a day with her, i'll just stare down on her whole day. These eyes of mine are ocean thirsty to see her. Well, my creator made me lucky enough and i offer my gratitude to him. But only at this matter i'm unlucky and that was valuable for me. Maybe he doesn't want me to get into affair or maybe he kept something better for me or maybe he took my greatest happiness and gave all others. I may have declared her as queen of this campus. As i'm some sort of king. Lol. And of course my buddies made me king, and they'll make her queen too. All of them would have respected her as well as loved her. She lost something even more. I love you cupid. A good night kiss on your forehead. Umwah:-* Bye.

Ops! Madam ta pura pain. Biroktikor. Samsun nahar name naki tar. Ato pak pak kore. Proxy diye dhora khaise. Present 18 jon, attendence 19 jon er. Anyways, obs niye ami khub hotash. Books a j picture gulo ase segulo dekhtei to bomi ashe. Madam er voice ta o shundor na. Beshi biroktikor. Mone hoy ear drum a khub sharply hit kore. Phone a manage kortese ekta pt. Akhon history and case dekha, bye

10:52 am

I'm on my class now. Obstetrics, lectured by Samsun nahar madam. What is she saying? Blah blah blah. Can't understand anything. Well, a simple confession, i was a little bit late. So, i don't know what the topic is. It is the worst subject ever. No doubt, as it belongs to female. Lol.

Need a change

2:38am

Hi guys! I'm back again. Time's two 38 am, location same. Today i'm feeling a bit better. Last night i was screwed. Don't know what i posted actually. I'm listening song, two songs repeatedly. One is Don't expect me to be your friend by Lobo and another one is One step up by Bruce Springsteen. I love these two songs. Well, tonight i'm willing to sleep early. Lets see if i can. I wanna change my lifestyle. It's not that i have a bad lifestyle better i can call it a little bit careless lifestyle. And i wanna turn it to more carefull. I don't know if i can realy make it, but l'd try my best.

Today i found our principle Mr. Tito in facebook. Never thought he would be at facebook. He does have a good taste. And i'm gonna concentrate on making money. I realy need some huge amount of money and share it with my buddies. They also need some. I'm planning to finish up my block posting with 16th batch. Some of my friends are doing such. Well, good call shipon. Good luck for that one.

I wanna start something new. Something i can enjoy. Who said that i have a lifetime gig with what i'm doing? Who like to do same charades all the time? It will go on it's own way. I've already reached at that level, maybe a bit higher than that. Now let my buddies do that with my supervision. Now i want them to control all thigs here. Now it's my time, time for the dream, dream of the skies. Oh hell no, it's already 3 oh 2 am. I better go and dream. Good night and a good night kiss to my cupid on her forehead. Ummwah :-* Bye.

Talking to myself

4:36am

Hi guys. This is shipon. Time's four 36 am. Location own room at boys hostel of fmc. At first, i'm not gonna lie and i want to inform you people that i'm a little intoxicated. I came back to fmc last day at afternoon. I've done nothing yet except blogging. Lol. Of course you can count it as work. Maybe not something important but work after all.

I'm lying on my bed and obviously listening music. My mp3 player playing music for me. Those are mind blowing songs. I just love them. And another thing i love is my snow white bed. I had a cup of tea and smoke one cigarette already before typing. These days i'm passing is like hell to me. I can't even tolerate. Sometimes it suffocates me. And wanna know the reason? Yes, it is for cupid. I don't know how much i love her, but i do know i love her and i can't get her. One of my friend want me to reveal this mystery. Metery of cupid. Well, i can do that. But the problem is, as i'm not a good guy and i have too many enemies, some people can do harm to her. Those people can do some nasty politics mixing up her. I don't want her to get into it. She's my another world, world of joy and happiness. When i think about her, i feel the joy yet it suffocates me. Breathing seems so difficult for me. Just feeling like i'm dying. But when i realize i'm alive it gives much more pain, like someone squeezing my heart to get all the blood off it. Nights are passing through. How much you love her shipon? I don't know, i can't measure it. All i know is i love her, and i can do anything for her. Even i can give up everything for her. Whoa! That's impressive. But buddy, why don't you tell her this? I can't tell her. Why? Do you think it's easy to say i love you? Yes it is. Nope, it isn't. But who are you? Why you are asking me this? Hahaha, can't you recognize me? Nope. I'm shipon. What? What the fuck are you talking about. Then who am i? You are shipon. Fuck you man. Do you thing i'm crazy? Hey hey, calm down, i'm your inner self. LMAO. Why you are laughing shipon? You're nuts? Nope. Then stop kidding me. Innerself, huh? You are fucking lame. Hang one, just look at me, i know everything about you. Then tell me what you know? What you want to know from me? Okay, tell me, is cupid loves me? I don't know, i know as much as you know about your cupid. Okay, then tell me is she hates me? Nope, she doesn't hate you, as because you've done nothing to hate you. But she fears you. Why? Don't know, maybe the same reason everyone else fears you. I'm here to help you shipon. What kind of help? As you need. I need no help from you. Yes you do. You are now at subconscious level. You need me. What else i need? What else, huh? Close your eyes, what can you see. A glimpse of cupid. That's what you need besides me. C'mon dude. Let me hook you off. You can't hook me off, no one can. Listen buddy, love is not for you. You are not that type. Yes you do love your people, but that is too gross. You are not good at making love. Who said that? I do love her, that's for sure. Yeah, but i said you are not good at that. Love is not so simple. Did i ever said it simple. Oh jesus, no you didn't. She don't have any feelings about you. How did you know? Yes, i know. Okay okay. You're right. Now ans me few things. Okay, go on, hit me. Did she ever thought about me? Maybe. What is she doing now, sleep? Did she ever dreamt of me? C'mon shipon. Why she would dream about you. Who are you to her? No one. But i love her. That is one sided, you know. So, what can i do now? What can you do? That was good ques. You can do two thing. One, you can forget her. That's impossible, whoever you are you might know that. Yes i know, that's why i left another option. So, what is that? Two, you can... Yes go on, what? You can... Fuck you man, just tell me what else i can do, that is the only option i have. Calm down bud. You can love her without hoping to get her. Sorry bud, don't give me that sad face. Poor you, you know you look so weird on that sad face. Hey bud, listen, you better chill out like you used to do at 1st year. This is not my 1st year you asshole. And would you please shut your pie hole for a minute? Okay okay. Calm down. Jesus christ, help this boy. Excuse me. I don't need any help. Neither from you nor from jesus. Get the hell outta here. Could you please tell me one thing? Yes i can, i'm here just for you. Am i really bad guy? No no, don't hesitate. Tell me frankly. I think, no you're not. Then why do people hate me? Nobody hates you shipon. Just a few people, don't count on them. Seriously, you know what i think of myself? What? I am a bad guy. I have gallons of alcohol in my stomach. That doesn't make anyone bad. You are not that gross. Nope man, in our country it's bad. Hey, c'mon. Don't you think the people of your country just upgraded. And in your modern society alcohol is a little thing. And weed? Is it little too? And juice? Is it little either? Let me say you something shipon. Besides this addiction everything you've done earlier was greatly appreciated by your people and the students of fmc too. People will remember your name. What can be more glorious than this? Yeah, you're right. But you know, we people only remember bad things till death of any guy, and the good things, not more than a year or even less. Do you think so? Yes i do. Lets see who's right. Okay. Hey, i wanna see my cupid. And how you're gonna do that? I don't know. Do you have any idea? Nope. But one thing i can tell you, you better check her pictures you have. That i always do. I didn't meant that. I meant to see her face to face. That would be difficult. So difficult. Yeah i know. But it is difficult either to satisfy my thirsty eyes with her pictures. Hey, i have an idea. What? Tell me. You better close your eyes again. Hope you can see her. Whoa! Finally you are smiling. What did you saw? She was smiling at me. Wow, that's so romantic. Not that much. One day i dreamt about her. And that's what i call romantic. Can i ask you about the dream? Yeah, sure, She come to me knowing i love her and she hold my hand and replied she loves me too. We were walking holding hands of each other. Uhh! I wish your dream come true. Hey shipon? Yeah? What's the time now? It's five 33. OMG! It's morning already. Why don't you turn your phone off and go to sleep. I'm not feeling sleepy. Can you do me a favor? Sure, what? Fetch me a cigarette. Okay, hang on. Here it is. Thank you. Oh shit. What happened? I just burnt my wrist. Oh jesus. Are you okay? Yeah yeah, don't worry. I'm alright. Go to sleep now dear. Would you please let me finish my cigarette? Okay, finish it. Can i ask you one thing? Not now shipon, it's already morning. Just, last one please. You insists a lot. Okay go on. But last one remember. What if i shit you out dead? You can't do that shipon. You've already tried once when you felt guilty for the wrong you've done. That was my biggest mistake, but i was compelled to. Yes i know. Those emotional blackmails, you were afraid. Yeah. You know i hate myself most. Being hatred by yourself is far better than being hatred by others. You are a lucky guy shipon. People around you really loves you. Now go to sleep and have a nice dream. Thank you. Just tell me one thing, when you'll come back? Whenever you need. Till then bye. Good night. Good night.

The sun goes down, I feel the light betray me...

Fattrar char a fattrami.

Looking at the horizon. Trying to see my life. But can't even see. Because someone stoolen my life.

Jibon, jekhane jemon.

3:33pm

Bus cholche. Totota speedy na bus ta. Tachara savar er rastae speed a chalano o jaena. Jam thake ekhane okhane. Savar. Akhane amr kichu friends ase. Besh powerful. Now JU te pore. H.S.C exam er pore besh kichu shomoy akhane adda mere kataisi. Shomoy pelei savar chole ashtam. Shuvo, sobuz, robin aro oneke. Memories. Jotil jinis. Kokhon mojar, kokhono bishadmoy. Gan shunchi mobile a. Artcell er. Headphone ta nosto holo goto porshu, ek side nosto. Majhe majhe baje, majhe majhe baje na.
Cupid k niyeo amr kichu srity ache. Pashapashi bole golpo korar srity. Khub nerveous feel korchilam tokhon. Ekdom corner a boschila jeno or sorir a dhakka na lage. Se ask korsilo, 'tmk amader sathe ashte bole tmr dintai mati kore dilam na? Ami bollam, nah thik ase. Problem nei. Kichukkhon por abar ask korlo, boste problem hocche? Ami reply korlam, nah. Mukhe akhon thanda batash lagtese. Valo lagche. But prochondo matha betha korche. Bujhtesi keno, but upae nai. Faridpur giye hoyto kichu kora jabe. Jai hok, ja bolchilam, Oi din ami drunk chilam kichuta. Abong amr sathe ekta mojor bottle chilo, alcohol mixed. O nak chepe bose chilo or orna diye. Ami confused chilam. O ki alcohol er gondhe nak chepe ache kina? Tai mojor bottle ta fele dilam. R van thamiye candy kine khelam. Then okey ask korlam, tmr ki prOblem hocche? O bollo, koi na to. Ami bollam, nah nak chepe acho tai ask korlam. O bollo, amr dust allergy ache. Jak ektu shanti pelam. Rasta ta valo chilo na. Tai 2/3 bar or sathe dhakka o khelam. Khub bibroto bodh korchilam tokhon. Lojja o lagchilo. Ferar pothe amra chilam sobar seshe. Amrao vablam aste aste jai. R ami thakle sobai ektu voy kom e pae. Ochena jaega holeo. Pore ekta dokan er shamne van thamiye mojo kinlam sobar jonno. Emon vab nilam j ami mojo khete khub like kori. Evabe kete gelo oi din. Srity hoye roye gelo sudhu amr kache.
Pa betha korche khub. Dhat. Halka halka bristy hocche. Jodio i hate rain, tobuo bristy te vijte icche korche. Wow ki shundor name hospital er. Rome American Hospital. Odvut. Sob doc ki Italy r americar? All because of you by Saliva ganta hocche, josh ekta gan. Sob kichu e tmr jonno. Accha ekhon ki rongdhonu othe na? Onek din rongdhonu dekhi na. Artificial rongdhonu saradin dekhlam age choto belae. Prism diye. Choto belae nijessho ekta lab korsilam bashay. Ekbar chinta korsilam microscope o kine felbo. Pore r kena hoini. Lol. Scientist er moto vab nite cheyechilam hoyto. Thanda batash eshe lagche mukhe, sathe 2/1 ta bristyr fota. Gram a jete icche korche. But jabona. Indecision a vugtesi koyekdin dhore. Ki korbo, ki korbo na. Valo lagche na. Kichukkhon cokh bondho kore thaki. Hoyto valo lagbe...

Shibir - Bastards of 71.

2:41am

Here i am again. It is really inspiring for me knowing that people are visiting my blog everyday. And most of the traffic comes from facebook. Today i've edited my blog and put some new look for it. Hope you guys will like it.
Today one thing made me so angry. And the thing was a picture. Someone uploaded a picture on FB and taggeg Mr. Jami of F-13. Perhaps the uploader supports Islami Chattro Shibir politics. That doesn't matter at all. The point is, there was text in that picture saying, Hasina has taken money from pakistan in 1971 for her livelihood. Well, ofcourse she shouldn't do that. But my ques is, if it is a crime or something illogical or dispute our pride howcome you people support JAMAT??? As they are the war criminals, they were those bastards helping pakistani army to rape our women, to kill our freedom fighters, to burn out the village of our country. Shame on you guys. Mr. Salauddin Kader chowdhury, the bastard once said, 'it was war in 1971 and we lost. What if we won?' So, ofcourse you lost the war, and for that reason you are not independent, you are not free, this is not your country. And the supporters of those bastards, the new generation of rajakar, you are not free too. The freedom is not yours. I think this shibir guys must trying to repay to those rajakar by supporting them, as with their help these shibir guys was born muslim as pakistani raped their mother. They use religious morals for their politics. Because religion is so sophisticated for any muslims. And they usually choose people came from rural, or people of middle class or lower middle class family as they need to help theirselves with finance. Retina, the factory of producing bastards. I just hate these guys. Curse on you. Allah will punish you as you guys are supporting the traitors of motheland.

What is love???

1:32am

I was talking about heart. Well, it is just a pumping mechine which pumps the blood. It doesn't have any relation with emotion. Yeah perhaps it has. But that is not so significant. That little relation is, emotion controls it's activity. In nervousness it pumps faster than usual. That's a different fact. But the perception goes directly to brain. and it is limbic system which we can say our MON in bangla. So, what is Love? It is something beyond our comprehension. No one can explain what love is. Let me think about it. Well, love is a virus. It enters through the eyes, multiplies is you heart, travels through your mind and weakens your activity, viability changes your habit, desire, actually whole life. Ha ha ha. It may happen in 2 ways, Acute love (Love at 1st sight and most of it, is attraction. Not all) and Chronic love (Mostly true love, happens slowly and beyond your awareness, unknown, unspoken) I never said to my mom or dad or my brothers and sister that i love them. That is chronic. That can be happen to others to. But now these love is fake. Like, a boy said 'hey girl, i love u' and the girl replied, 'umm i'm not sure, let me have the time to think about it'. Well get your time, and after few days the girl replied, 'well i thought over nights and finally noticed that i love you too' What do you guys think? This is really love? They lost their commonsense too. That girl gave birth of love for the boy just thinking over nights. Lol. How silly is this? And the base of love is beauty these days, well smartness too. But what is beauty? White skin? What is more beautiful than death, huh? Beauty is, the way you talk, the way you walk, the way you look at, the way you gaze upon other, the way you smile, the way you laugh, the way you cry, the way you comb your hair, the way you choose your outfits, the way you lie, the way you think, everything is part of your beauty. I've seen so many black girls are far more beautifull than some white girls. Beauty lies inside of your body and comes out by your doings. That is beauty. Saying love you is not the way of expressing love. A girl never said to me that she loves me, but i know she loves me and waiting for the opportunity to let me know. As i don't do the same, i won't give her the opportunity. Love is new hope of living happily. One of my ex-friend used to say Love is chemistry. Maybe it is. One molecule donates/takes an elctron to/from other and binds together forming a bond gives another molecule. Maybe love is an exceptional math in which one plus one always equals to one. Or maybe love is philosophy in which one is born for another one. But love doesn't require to end up happily. It doesn't require to get theirselves married. In religious thought, women were born for men and from their bones of chest. They are matted pairs and they will marry each other. It doesn't mean he/she can not love anyone else. He/she will marry you as his/her fate, but it is not written on fate that he/she will love you. So, i might say don't make love too cheap. It is so precious. Once given, was given forever. No pay back demands. But surely it will pay off if it is true. This is my psychology, that may conflict with yours, sorry for that. And if it hurts anyone who read it, accept my apology.

Days of dhaka.

12:22am

Days here at dhaka is not so exciting anymore. Elakae onk senior hoye gechi. Chayer dokane adda, golpo etc. Choto belae bashay shamner bishal boro dhupkhola maath a cricket kheltam. Borabor e ata ami valo kheli. Ekhon r khela hoyna. College theke khela chere disi. FMC te o temon ekta kheli nai. FMC te amr performance totota valo na, jodio amr team champ. Ekta 98 run er innings khub ekta boro kichuna. Choto belae amk afridi bolto keu keu, abar keu keu gibs bolto. lol. Aj amr sokal hoyeche 2:30 a. Vaia k see off korte 7 tae ekbar uthsilam. Then abar ghum. Bikele lunch kore friends der sathe adda marlam. Ami, emon, prokash, pitu, agomon, tomal, faruk, shomrat. Aro koyekjon. Valoi laglo onkdin porer adda. Friends der kache ami buddhijibi type er. J kono solution amkei dite hoy. Tar ag porjonto torko choltei thake. Jony k miss korlam. O gram a geche. Bikrompur. Himu, babu k o dekhlam na. Vul amr e. Phone dinai oder. Kal dibo. Asole ekhon amader age er max. chele hoy job notuba business kore. R amra medical a ghas kati. Hayre medical. Amr ekta election korar icche chilo. Student life a parlam na. FMC te to chattro shongshod nai. Thakle election kortam. Ami jittam bole amr biswas. Vote politics different jinis. Ata ami onk valo bujhi. Feku mamar cha ta darun lage. Or dokanei amader adda. Mojar manush ekta. Kotha barta shunle haste haste obostha kharap hoye jae. Bashay khabar niye amr ektu problem hoy. Sara din ki keu khete pare? Ata niyei jhamela hoy beshi. Amr ma jhari o khay amr kase ei jonno. Ekbar ma k bollam gorur mangsho paoa faridpur ektu tough. Bolei ekta pap korsi. Ekhon ashle sara din gorur mangsho. Ata ki shomvob, sara din gorur mangsho khawa? Ki r kora. Ami kono dhoroner fish e khaina. Selective kisu. Jeemon, ilish, chingri etc khai. Age dekha jeto sara din agulo khete hobe. Ajob. Khawa dawa niye amr kono interest nai. Ja pabo tai khaba, valo na lagle khabo na. Na kheye thakte amr problem hoyna. Majhe majhe to khabar kotha vulei jai. Majhe majhei emon hoise j rat a choto vai der ask kortesi, oi ami ki dinner korsi? Mone pore na. Tobe amr bed ta k khub miss kortesi. Asole hostel a amr j bed ase seta chara onno kothao amr ghum ashte kosto hoy. Otobi theke 13hazar tk diye kinsilam single bed ta. Sathe foam, 3 hazar tk. Balish gula 300tk kore kinsilam maybe. Onek aram. Puran hoye geche. New kinbo vabtesi. Sobcheye beshi miss kortesi amr rocking chair ta. Ota amr onk boro company. Rat a dol khete khete chinta kortam politics and other bepar gulo niye. Aj prokas er kach theke kichu wallpaper nilam mobile a. Jotil kichu quotes. Ekta hocche, I say No to Drugs. But they don't LISTEN. Jotil na? Lol. R kichu love niye quotes ase. Obossho segulo porle cupid er kotha mone pore. Sob shomoy e pore, but tokhon miss kori. Feel kori tar absense ta. Problem holo ami takey shorashori kokhono propose korini. Parbo o na. Shahoshe kulae na amr. Okey ami khub voy pai seta ageo bolsi. Tomra ki bolte paro amr ki kora uchit? Mojar bepar holo, campus a koyekta junior amk like kore, prem korte chay. Lol. But tarao bolte voy pae amk. Amk emnitei sobai voy pae. Kintu mul bepar holo, tara amk like kore and prem korte chay, kintu valobashe na. Valobashar prokas ta kono na kono vabe hobei. Ata keu lukate parena. So, i've never seen any symptom of love for me on them. I konw few of them. Maybe it's just an attraction. Love is far different from it. My one is love. The chance of have her is zip, though i'm feeling her, missing her every single moment, sacrificed my entire academic carrier just to stay far from her. No one knows. Only me and the almighty. Yeah, i felt attraction for few other girls too. And when they gone i felt nothing painful on me. So, it made me sure that it wasn't love, just attraction which grows in eyes and fades over time. In FMC in most cases the girls want benefits from boys, he who gives more than anyone else have a big probability to be her bf. And another option it time. With whom a girl spent most of her time doing anything like study or chat or phone conversation is her bf in future. Maybe it will take one or 2 months. And when they have nothing to give or take, they will broke up. Now these day having bf/gf has become part fashion. And making change of it another type of fashion. Dependency. If you love anyone, you don't need to propose, just provoke her to depend upon you, she'll propose you shortly if she is not cunning. Simple. Sex is another blessing!!! of our modern society. Have you ever had sex? (Nope) Nope??? Are you crazy? You are still virgin? I wonder if you realy have a dick. Damn man, don't say you are gay... LMAO! This is conversation between 2 friends in our modern society. The world is turning too fast i think. It was embarassing to hug any girl at open place like park. Now? Kissing is normal at park and if you have the chance you may suck dick. And after evening? God damn it. One of my friend got married and he realy talks too dirty. Today i react so badly to stop him. He just replied, c'mon man, i think your dick doesn't erect at all. I was astonished and replied him back, yeah dude, as you have somewhere to put your dick when it erects. But i don't. So, what's the benefit for me if it erects? I don't have such. Then he shuts his pie hole. Screwed. Sometime it feels to me that all the people oevr the world is after 2 things, food and sex. Yeah, i read that on physiology. It does have medical base. Limbic system. Maybe limbic system is our MON not heart. Heart is just a pumping mechine.

The truth continued.

2:32am

Yeah, they deserve to be friend of people like zakir. Aj zakir shipon k niye 5 ta baje kotha showrav k bolche to kal showrav k niye 5 ta baje kotha shipon k bolbe. Ha ha ha. These guys are poisons of our society. I never thought people like this will get closer to me, but just for showrav. When these type people can't get room from me, they surely would go to showrav and make some delicious chat for about 30 min and he will be the best friend of showrav for next few days. Majed er sathe jhograr karone showrav amr sathe ase. Majed er ekta ghotna boli, majed. The best tout i've ever seen in my life. Ami bortomane j room a asi, seta ai campus a amr 1st alloted room. 106. Ai room a 2 jon thaka jae. Tablig chalaki kore ai room a 3 jon uthalo, tokhon amra matro campus a aschi. Kosto hoto 3 joner. Ghum, porashona kisue hoto na. Majed extention er ekta room a eka uthlo, r keu okhane uthbe na. Se amk bollo tui amr sathe uthe ja. Ami bollam, hmm, dekhi, amr o room change korar icche ache, 3 jon oi room a thaka kosto. O bollo to amr room a chole ae. Deri kore lav ki, aj e ae. Ami bollam dekhi r ektu chinta kori. O nijei tokhoni amr bed, books or room a niye gelo. Badha dilam na. Boro ekta table a 2 jon portam. Ekdin porar shomoy showrav okey deke niye gelo. 30 min o eshe amk bolche. Dekh dost, ai room a 2 r ami thaki, 2 jon e ghum theke uthte parina. Class kora hocche na. Tor o problem amr o problem. Ami bepar valo kore bujhte parlam oi 30 min ki hoyeche. Ami bollam asol kotha bol, o bollo, ai hoy tui thak na hoy ami thaki. Tui thakle amr kasheful vai k dhore shandhanir room a uthte hobe, r tui to janis ami club a jorate chacchina. R tui gele, showrav er room a jete paris showrav k ekhane niye ashbo tahole. Ami sotti nirbak hoye gelam. Khub kharap laglo tokhon. Ami bollam ami chole jabo tobe ekta shorto. O ask korlo ki shorto. Ami bollam, ami akhon e ai muhurte room change korbo and amr jinispotro ja ache tomra oi room a diye ashba. Jei kotha sei kaj. Koyek din dekhi showrav r majed er jhogra, majed showrav k chere chole gelo onno room a. Sei 106. Oi room theke pore abar ami okey ber kore dei. Abar majed r showrav ek sathe 101 a uthlo. Kivabe shomvob ata. Pore jante parlam majed showrav er room giye porto, showrav k reading partner banaise. Lol. Ai tahole rohossho. Abar majed showrav jhorga, showrav er notun bondhu ebar zakir. 2 jon ek room a uthlo. Atao tiklo na. 2 jon abar 2 jon k dekhte pare na. Last a abar majed showrav juti. What a history. 101 no room niyeo jhamela hoisilo. Showrav uthbe jony vai er seat a. Ami razib vai k bolsilam, onar seat a ami uthbo. Zakir o naki bolse. Razib vai amk ador korto onek, abong amk onar seat a tulbe erokom chinta chilo tar. Zakir ek din adnan k diye amk dakalo, gelam. O amk bollo, dad 101 a tmi uthba na ami uthbo se bepar a tmr decision janar jonno daksi ektu. Tachara jony seat a to showrav uthbe. Or o to motamot thakte pare room mate kake korbe. Ami bollam, shono zakir, tmra decision niye amk janao. Ami jodi decision nei j ami uthbo, seta thekanor moto ability tomader nai. So tmrai decision nao. Amr problem nai. Bole chole ashlam. Tokhon 104 a thaktam. Zakir pore phone kore janalo o uthbe, ami phone a okey bollam, hmm ami jantam. Pore rajib vai kaokei dilo na. Showrav k o na. Zakir k o na. Dilo 12 er badshah vai k, tar sathe showrav uthbe na. Lol. O r ekta bepar, zakir amk dad dakto. Oder 14 gusti banate cheyechilo fmc te. Jony puspol k, showrav jony k, ami showrav k, r zakir amk bap dakto. Ami j kivabe showrav er chele holam mojar bepar. Jhumur name er ekta maye ase amader batch a. Jhumur k insult korar jonno boltam khalamma. Khalamma to mayer motoi. Pore daktam amma. Fun kore. Hotat shuni, biddut vai er ghotkali korte giye showrav feshe gese. Jhumur k valobashe se. Ai shutre amk chele daka shuru korlo. Ajob. R zakir er kotha nai barta nai hotat amk dad dad daka shuru korlo. Jottosob pagol chagol. Ai ghotona gulo ami kono din vulte parbo na. Onek koster ai srity gulo. Onek osru joriye ache ai srity te. Shudhu ekta jinish e bolbo, One day truth and honesty will triumph. 3 ta baje. Ghumanor try kori. Bye guys. Have a nice dream and wake up for a better day.

The truth!

1:50 am

Bashay eshe ekta jhamelae porte hoy sobshomoy. Seta holo cigarette. Rat cigarette khetam na kokhonoi, jokhon bashay chilam. But now hostel life a, rate atleast 10 ta cigarette lage. Bashay ashle khawa hoy 1 ta matro. Damn. This is just wrong man. Aj ekta sotti golpo likhvo blog a. Politics related. Amr kokhonoi avabe politics korar icche chilona. Mane ato boro politician howar. Ek friend oidin bollo, shipon er moto political leader kono mc tei nai. Kotha ta hoyto sotto ba otironzito. Tobe eta thik, medical college a politics kore pore zellar politics a leading deya aj porjonto keu pareni. Ja bolchilam, ata kokhonoi amr icche chilo na. FMC te vorti howar por dekhlam club based nongrami. Village politics. Sobcheye nikristotomo rajnity. Kharap lagto. Tokhon ami rajnity dhukanor bepar a uddog nilam. Pore shuni arokom aro koyekjon ase. Sobai ek holam. Rajnity ashlo, ekhane villain holo medicine club, mair khelo sojib r tanna. Sathe maruf. Amra committee pelam. Tokhon e politics theke nijeke gutiye nei. Ja cheyechilam tai hoyeche. R ki chai? Amader batch theke thik chilo ami president r showran gs. Kintu ami mone mone vabtam, ami president hole showrav amr mrittur ag porjonto bolbe j, se sacrifice korsilo bolei ami president hoisi. Ager ekta post a ami likhsilam, vikkhar dan ami nei na. Hoy adae kori or orjon kori. Tai mone mone thik korsilam sacrifice ta ami e korbo. But ai rajnity theke nijeke gutiye neya ta k amr durbolota vablo jony vai. Amk prae bad deyar plan korlo. Sei gs pod tai amr upor chapiye dite chay, na manle ami bad. Kharap laglo shune. Ami bollam amr pod lagbe na. Pod chai o na. Tarpor 2009 er 16th december amk phone dilo jony abong kharap achoron korlo. Challenge korlo amk. Bollo, tmi kivabe faridpur a politics koro ami dekhe nibo. I accept that challenge. Shuru holo amr upor manosik nirjaton jar kono protikar nai. Ek shomoyer kacher choto vaira beyadobi kora shuru kore indirectly. Khub kosto lagto. Prothome chinta korsilam college politics korbo na. Tito sir mana korsilo. Bolsilo, sobai rajnity kore ja pae, shipon jodi tader cheye beshi pae tahole or rajnity korar ki dorkar. Tai ami nijeke zella te involve korlam. Zellar ekta sodossho pod o college committee r president er soman. Sekhane performance ato valo j, aro boro pod chinta korto amk niye, ami nije kortam na. Rajnity ta ek shomoy nijer ostitto rokkhar jonno korte hoyechilo amr. Rajnity ene college a amr adhipotto brong komse. Age to shipon name ta senior der jonno o atongko chilo. Jai hok, jony vai k mone mone thanks janai ami. Tini betray na korle ami ato dur ashte partam na. Tachara, kormo abong kormofol a ami biswas kori. Jony vai amk faridpur a rajnity korte dibe na bolsilo, kintu se e faridpur a rajnity korte parlo na. Tar chele to bishal shubidhabadi, mane showrav. Jony k showrav baba dake. Kono upae na dekhe politics a bertho hoye room a lej gutiyeche. Akhon bole se student politics korbe na. Huh! O ki ai decision neyar age or sathe choto vai der kotha ek bar o vabse??? Selfish. Shubidhabadi. Aj ami jodi rajnity chere dae, amr fellow gular ki hobe chinta kora jae? Oder jonno holeo to amk involve thakte hobe. Akhon showrav emotional sms pathae majhe majhe. Huh. Kothae chilo ai emotion tokhon? Kkothae chilo ai friendship? Jony ekhon amr sathe phone a vab jomae. Ki character eder. Amr panse life er binodon era. Showrav er karone ami onk opomanito hoisi campus a. Tai chor er moto sokale berotam rat 2 ta baje firtam. Ekhon chaile sob opomaner revenge nite pari. Kintu nibo na. Ami or moto na. O ekhon amk dekhle lojja pae. Etai or shati. Allah e ei shasti okey dicche. Doctor politics korbe naki o. Valo. Ami mone hoy doc politics korbo na. Ha ha ha. Abar hobe dekha. Ek din sadir sathe library te asob kotha niye torko hocchilo. Ek porjaye sadi bole, hoyto jony vai tmr cheye showrav vai k beshi joggo mone korse. Joggota!!! Ami reply korsilam, ami mone hoy tomader rajnity te badha disi. Show 'em what you got. Showrav er neta hoyar joggota thakle obosshoi hobe. Ami to kothao badha dei nai. Mukhe boro boro kotha showrav er r jonyr. Tito sir er politics kore naki o. Huh! Tito sir ekhon okey tolerate korte pare na. Cause, amr name a onek mittha complain sir k korse se. Are, showrav er cheye tito sir amr shomporke beshi jane, khobor rakhe. Tito er jonnoi ba ki korse ora? Huh! Borong tito sir er principle howar pechoneo amr ektu holeo obodan ache. R amr name a sir k complain kore j ami sir er anti politics kori. Funny. They are realy mad guys! They've gone crazy then. Last college politics ta emon hoisilo j, shipon thekao. Anti-shipon politics. Sobai ek hoye amr against a. Tao bertho. Tar por room lej gutaise amr bondhu showrav. Amr ai birthday te sms send korsilo. Hayre natok. Amr protita birthday showrav k niye korsi. Kotha boltam na. Tobuo oi ek din er jonno okey bondhu hishebe mene nitam. Room a deke niye eshe tarpor cake kattam. Or mone hoy ai 5 year maybe 1 ta birthday te amk invite korsilo. Ekhon bondhu. Tokhon ai friendship kothae chilo? Ami lokjoner sathe jogra korsi, r showrav korse pirit. Amr sob gula shotru or friend. Jaderke dekhte parina, tara or friend. Sobgula tout. Actually chore chore mastuto vai to hobei. Onek koster srity agula. Age jokhon kaoke boltam kanna peto. Kadsio onek eshob vebe. Tito sir bole, shipon hocche amr moto, baire shokto, vetor ta norom. Emotional. Tai hoyto agulo vebe kadtam. Now i just hate them. They don't deserve to be a friend of people like me. They deserve to be a friend of zakxy.

Night at home.

10:01pm

Bashar kisu kisu jinish amr khub e birokto lage. Mone hoy amra sobai pagol. Er moddhe onnotomo holo, akhon kono kisu keu korte bolle seta tokhon e korte hobe jodio totota important na. Jai hok, bashay aschi, valo lagtese. Ashar shomoy baje ekta journeyr oviggota holo. Agei bolsi, ai route er journey baje. Tar upor abar namar kotha ek jaegae, vule onno bus a uthe namsi r ek jaegae. Babu bazar a. Tobe ekta lav o hoise ete. Amr school er shamne diye aschi. Sei victoria park. Luxmi bazar. Ahmed burger shop. New KFC o hoise ekhon. Oporichito mone hocchilo. Dafrin muslim hostel. Amader school er hostel. Onek srity joriye ache oi rastae. Shejutyr sathe tanki mara shuru hoy okhan theke. Or sathe or ma thakto. Or mayer cokh faki diye amra prem kortam. Lol. Tobe shejuty r sathe kokhon dating hoyni. Ghurteo jaini kokhono. Sudhu matro koyekbar or bashay gesi. Or ma chilo na. Ami, shejuty, or vai alvi. Shejuty k kokhono touch o korinai. Ekbar or birthday te okey ring kine diyechilam. Seta nije okey poriye diyechilam. O ki engagement ring mone kore porsilo naki??? Lol. O khub shundori chilo. But amr moner moto na. Akhon kar chelepele to shundor er piche chote. Shejuty shundor, smart ekta meye. Tobuo ki jeno or chilo na. Tai hoyto ami okey kokhon gf hishebe nei nai. Actually, choto belae ami o r or vai, sathe aro oneke eksathe kheltam. Choto belar khela, borof pani. Hasi pacche esob mone kore. Issh, okey ami j mair gula ditam choto belae. Chul tantam. Boro hoye jokhon prem kori o bolto, tmr mair deyar kotha ami jiboneo vulbo na. Bibroto bodh kortam. Sathe sathe boltam tmi o to kom maroni amk, ata bole hastam. O bolto ami pithe ekhono tmr mair er dag ase hoyto. Or sathe faizlami korar doshe ek chele k ekbar amrs diye voy dekhlam. Ami nije na, lokjon pathasilam. Arif name chilo. Sejuty ekbar phone kore onk kannakati korsilo. Asole sotti kotha bolte, ami different hoisi o ekta meyer jonno. Gadha type chilam maybe. Tar name shimu. Shimu chilo amr 1st attraction. Ongkurei sesh. Hawa pao name hawae uriye dilam type. True love ektai korsi and kivabe hoise bujhtei parinai. Tokhon bujhlam eta true love from either side. Okey niye kichu likhbo na. Kosto lage. Mone korte chaina or srity. Shimu shomporke pore jesob khobor jansi shune mone mone bolsi Shimu you are nothing but a whore now. Shimu r ami ek school a portam. School er last din amk ekta card dilo or friend ra soho sobai mile, o amk dilo alada kore r ekta. Lekha chilo 'Remember me'. Class 4 a pori. Bujhi nai kisue. Just valo friend chilam. Valo na best friend. Hand shake korar shomoy hat betha ditam or. Ekdin o amk bole, betha paina r, obvosto hoye gechi. School chere onno school a vorti holam. Ek eid a shimu amader bashay hazir. Ami to obak. Ora naki ekdin amk follow kore amr basha chinse. Or boro bon soho. Sob or boro bon er buddhi, apu tokhon ten a porto maybe. Tar porer din oder bashay amk invite korlo, gelam, sara din chilam. Golpo, khela r o kotokisu. Okey o marsi khelar chole. Oder bashay ekta kukur chilo. Jeta amr shotru chilo. Shimu tokhon 6/7 a pore. Amio. Onk din por class ten a ami abar jogajog kori or sathe, amr friend er jonno actually. Amr friend or ek friend k like kore. Avabe abar shimu'r sathe jogajog. Adda, golpo. Ek shomoy shuni or BF ase. Amr ek friend k bolsilo, and atao bolsilo, j shipon k ami khub like kortam choto belae. Kintu hotat o hariye gelo, r jogajog korlo na. Er moddhe r ek jon er sathe porichoy holo, pore affair. Porichoy ta hoisilo naki bangla film er moto kore. Kichu chele okey tease korto, r oi cheleta hero hoye eshe seta bondho korse. Maramari o korse maybe. Tokhon mathae chinta elo, jah baba, mastan chele meyeder pochondo naki? Amio mastan hobo, godfather. But kono meyeke allow korbo na life a. Tarpor shuru holo amr biddhongshi life. Dhupkhola mather atongko type holam. Just amr porichoy diyei maramari. Oi amre chinos? Ami shipon vai er choto vai. Lol. Sejutyr sathe jogajog chilo tokhono. Approach o korse 1st. Faizlami korto. Ami vablam, mondo ki ektu tanki mari. Ata j ek shomoy love hoye jabe or jonno bujhi nai. But amr kisue korar chilo na. H.S.C exam er age khelam ek bishal dhakka. Tarpor shuru korlam pora. Jar fole ami aj FMC te. Amr friend ra amk khub valobashe. Ek shomoy kisu kisu friend shudhu matro amr power er jonno friend chilo. Ora hariye geche srityr patae. Akhon olpo kisu friend er sathe jogajog ase. Amr circle ta ato boro j bangladesher sob jaegae e amr friend ase. Just khuje ber korte hobe. Ekhon jony e amr ek matro friend. R ek jony ase, mig33 theke amr friend. O amk bole, tui to amr kolijar tukra. Ha ha ha. Supportive. Galaxy bar a adda martam ami r o. Sathe aro kisu mig friend. Sobcheye moja kori eid a. 1 case beer. R ekta bottle. Jekono hote pare, tobe obosshoi bideshi. Eid er 2 din dhore saradin drinks kora chole. FB te kisu pix o ase. Ami kisudin alcoholic hoye giyechilam. Chronic. Hostel a ek bottle kintam, protidin 6/7 peg kore khetam. Akhon chere disi. Now bye. Pore valo lagbe abar kisu likhbo. Amr jiboni. Lolzzz

Journey.

5:14pm

Now i'm on my way to home. This is kind of different route. Maowa hoye. Adike diye gesi koyekbar. But 1st faridpur ashchilam ai route hoye. 250 bed a thamsilam first. Tobe ai dik diye gele amr subidha holeo journey ta baje hoye jae. Bus gulo valona. Local. Aj e to last seat a blshe ashte holo. Sani to dariyei thaklo vanga porjonto. Bechara. Jak akhon ekta valo bus uthsi bole blogging korte partesi. Weather ta chorom. Amr moto sadhu der jonno aro chorom. Now besh thanda lagtese. Janala khola bus er. Thanda batash direct amr mathar right lateral side potese. Gari theme gele batash o theme jae. Oi bus a jokhon chilam tokhon onek kisu chinta kortesilam chokh bondho kore. Sani mone korse ami ghumaisi. Headphone a gan shuntesi. Tokhon obossho gangulo analysis korchilam. Ki mean kore gan gulo. Shironamhin er Onek asha niye ganta shundor. Ai gantar theme holo, ekjon cheka khawa premik er golpo. Ekta line, jodi ghum sob ghum vange jae ami onek asha niye jege thaki. Ata diye bujhiyeche, jodi tar premika abar fire eshe dorja kora nare tahole tar ghum vangbe. Ete jodi deri hoy, tai se tar premikar protikkhae jege thake. Jotil meaning. Kolpona korle music video vashe cokhe. Mane kolponae ekta music video dairye jae. hahaha. Music videor director hole kharap kortam na. Almost here ganta, Brian McFadden r Delta Goodrem er. Ata hocche, valobashae pagol 2 chagol ek jon arek jon k kolpona kore. Illusion. Tobe Rob thomas er now comes the night gan ta asolei jotil. Bura manusher valobasha. Wife er proty husband er. Jar wife young age a mara gese. Bura boyoshe amio piano bajate bajate ganta korbo. Lol. Mon chuye jae gangulo. Bashay jaoar shomoy bus sobshomoy ekta gan shuni ami, shanjib dar bari fera ganta. Ebar shuninai. Akhon play korlam. Gantar moddhe momottobodh, uccholota ase. Ai side er rasta ta khub dangerous. Accident so common. R accident hole to direct hell. O valo kotha, tahole to acdc r highway to hell ganta shona jae. MegaMind film tar gan gulo choose korche jotil. Ha ha ha. Moja lage film ta. Being bad is one thing i'm good at. Then it hit me. If i'm the bad boy, i'll be the baddest of them all. I was destined to be a super villain. Ha ha ha. Shanjib dar ei ganta o shundor. Ekti cokhe kajol. Bashor rater por sokale ghum theke uthe cheleta tar ghumonto nobobodhu k dekhe ganta. Majhe majhe mone hoy, jodi kokhono biye kori tahole bou k onek valobashbo. Dukkho pete dibona, amr joto kostoi hok. Lojja lagche kotha ta bole. Ami meyeder sathe shadharonoto kotha bolte parina. Lojja lage. But phone a pari. Fun kori. Pat khet. Ekbar magura te giye golap er khet dekhechilam. Golap er abar khet hoy naki? Seta to bagan. Lol. Eta asolei khet chilo. Golap chas kore sell kore maybe. Bus a jaoar shomoy sorshe ful cokhe porbei. J jekhane jak. Khub common. But ami to aj dekhini. Aj to janala diye baire takiye chilam na aj. Englsih gan er pronunciation gulo alada. Shinedown devour ganta te, take it and take it and... Ai line guli, take in' take in' mone hoy. Amr english pronunciation naki valo. Johanna bolse. Amr finland er friend. Khub valo friend. But communication rakhte parina. Mukhe batash lagtese. Valo feel korchi. Waking up ganta sesh holo, 10 years er. Now shuru holo devour by shinedown. Devour, devour, suffocate your own empire. Devour, devour, it's your final hour. Devour, devour, stolen like a foreign soul. Valo gan. Prem piriter gan na. Timbaland er they way i are ganta shunbo. Jotil lage ganta. Thug it out till we get it right. Speed boat a uthbo ektu por. Speed boat a oi par. Then abar bus a.